General For older readers by zebrasoul 1/30/2011 written by zebrasoul 1/30/2011 I’m almost 42. For those on this site who are closer to my age (i.e., not teens or early 20’s)…have depression & suicidal feelings been a longstanding issue for you? If so, do you remember any extended periods of relief? Just curious. Thanks. 17 comments 0 Email Related posts ¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!.¡!¡!¡!¡!¡! 10/15/2021 I don’t understand myself either 10/15/2021 Don’t want to rot away in an elder... 10/15/2021 Sleeping pills 10/15/2021 bit by bit 10/14/2021 I HATE WINDOWS UPDATES 10/14/2021 Like a dying star 10/14/2021 attempts: what was going through your mind? 10/14/2021 why 10/13/2021 i cant do this anymore 10/13/2021 17 comments cracked 1/30/2011 - 2:57 pm I’m 45. I have suffered from my late teens, perhaps before. Do I remember extended periods of relief ? I imagine that there have been but when depressed I find it very difficult to imagine not being depressed, when not, I can’t remember what it is to be depressed. In short, when depressed, I find it difficult to remember periods of relief. I suppose though that it has always been there, though not always centre stage. Log in to Reply vincent213 1/30/2011 - 2:57 pm I’m your age. I’ve been depressed since my early teens. I can’t say that there were many periods of relief for me.. only acceptance. Which I guess provided some relief. Log in to Reply cracked 1/30/2011 - 2:59 pm Thoughts of suicide did come to me in my late teens, occasionally through my twenties, they really kicked in in my late thirties and have been particularly aggressive these past few months. Log in to Reply zebrasoul 1/30/2011 - 3:26 pm Do you feel more hopeless as you age? I’m in a bad spot, and I feel like my age has made me doubt that things will get better. No one seems to understand how I feel, and I get so frustrated by the lack of resources for middle aged people struggling with suicidal thoughts. Log in to Reply vincent213 1/30/2011 - 3:50 pm Having social anxiety is what leads me to believe things will continue to get worse. Ive lost work, my business, friendships,and relationships because of it. I dont think my age plays that big of a part yet. Log in to Reply BleachedOutLands 1/30/2011 - 4:18 pm I had a 2 year period of relief when I was 30. I had a LOT of emotional/social support, had a job I liked, was in good shape physically and was out in nature, hiking, a lot. I’ve been depressed pretty much my entire life except for that time. Like someone else mentioned, resources for middle-aged people are few and far between. I believe this is because our culture is all about youthism. After about age 35 we don’t really matter anymore (to society). I really think that social/emotional support is key to breaking out of being so suicidal/depressed. Lots of people find it in church, volunteering, etc. Feeling useful, like I contribute something important, combats depression really well, I think. Log in to Reply BleachedOutLands 1/30/2011 - 4:19 pm P.S. I’m 47, btw Log in to Reply n o o m 1/30/2011 - 4:54 pm Been a downer since 20,now 37.I don’t think I will get better unless a miracle or something drastic happens.Can’t really function in the real world due to intense physical and mental pain Log in to Reply cracked 1/30/2011 - 5:15 pm I think one does to begin to feel more hopeless the older one becomes or rather more hopeless the longer it lasts. I have suffered for more than 20 years and have been treated for perhaps 10 or 15. In my early thirties I was more hopeful of a ‘cure” , now less so. Personally I do not believe depression to be a clinical illness, though I do think that certain people have a greater propensity to depression, learnt behaviour, genetic predisposition etc., depression is something I believe is learnt, a behaviour and one that becomes reenforced by habit. Social anxiety is also an issue I have though I have tended to bulk it together with depression. Again, I think SA, a habit, a phobia built from continued avoidance. Log in to Reply cracked 1/30/2011 - 5:20 pm Depression amongst people in there 40s is not uncommon – I think resources are fairly thin in terms of dealing with thing altogether. People have difficulty understanding the condition – the stigma it engenders still considerable. Log in to Reply cracked 1/30/2011 - 5:30 pm Their not there Log in to Reply zebrasoul 1/30/2011 - 5:39 pm Cracked, you are exactly correct in mentioning the stigma of depression. I can’t talk about my feelings with my friends or family because they have such harsh, unyielding views. Some people think that depression is equal to being “crazy,” as if depressed people are automatically psychotic or delusional. Others think depression is a sign of weakness or laziness, but I believe I’ve had to be pretty strong to deal with it all these years. Some religious people see it as a shortcoming of belief in God’s power, or one’s own flawed lack of faith. I so wish there were greater resources (besides the standard anti-depressant prescription) for people my age. Log in to Reply will692 1/30/2011 - 6:13 pm Things can always get better, no matter what your age. Log in to Reply hopetodie 1/30/2011 - 6:42 pm im 48 and hope to end my life soon Log in to Reply zebrasoul 1/30/2011 - 7:40 pm I have two helium tanks and an exit bag. I tried to end my life last week & again this morning, but I must have done something wrong because I’m still here. Will try again later tonight. I don’t want to encourage anyone to take their own life, yet I feel a bit odd saying “Don’t do it!” when I’ve got my plan ready to go. I don’t understand why life is so hard, or why so many of us feel so hopeless. There’s something so wrong about that. Log in to Reply cracked 1/31/2011 - 2:44 am Vincent, what causes your social anxiety ? Log in to Reply vincent213 1/31/2011 - 4:01 am Mostly the way I feel about myself. Poor self image and low self esteem. Being a perfectionist only makes matters worse. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.