General hi,um, not sure if I’m at the right site or not. Looking for a suicide chat room where i can get info on how to do it… don’t want to survive and end up brain damaged! by Journey 1/31/2011 written by Journey 1/31/2011 21 comments 0 Email Related posts Loooney Bin 10/22/2021 Birthday depression 10/21/2021 Why Are People Such A**holes These Days? 10/21/2021 I hate… 10/21/2021 They meant a lot. 10/21/2021 Recovery 10/20/2021 I Just Want to Go 10/20/2021 No choices left 10/20/2021 The brink of addiction 10/20/2021 I think I’m being abused 10/19/2021 21 comments will692 1/31/2011 - 6:16 pm Please don’t do it. Life will get better. Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 6:20 pm Thanks, but no thanks. I just want out… sleeping pills and booze with a couple Dramamine to keep it all down. I dont know how many though if 30 will be enough or more like 100. Log in to Reply unbecoming 1/31/2011 - 6:49 pm A few. Modify your search terms so it isn’t an outright suicide-shopping-list 101 Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 7:03 pm ok, so how do i modify it? I’ve tried everything i can think of. Log in to Reply 06_sky 1/31/2011 - 7:04 pm journey where do u live? Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 7:08 pm Someplace cold and desolate. Log in to Reply miguel 1/31/2011 - 7:20 pm if you need a how-to, then you shouldn’t do it. you’re attentive and you care enough to apply your energies elsewhere, toward adjusting to your surroundings, or to finding something new to do that might be enjoyable Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 7:30 pm I’m a loser in a dead end job, I thought of going back to school for nursing but have depersonalization disorder… and everthing seems like a dream, I keep waiting to wake up but I never do. and its driving me nuts! I dont want to stay where I am for the next 25 years but don’t see any way out. Log in to Reply will692 1/31/2011 - 8:00 pm You will wake up eventually. People want to help you because life is worth it. Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 8:06 pm idk about that… had a really bad night Friday, and my shrink who had said i had to promise to either promise to be safe or text him, didnt text back. so, i figure screw it all, I’m sick of trying and I’m out of here. Log in to Reply zebrasoul 1/31/2011 - 8:22 pm No offense, but your shrink didn’t have a good plan. Over the holidays, I had my counselor’s number, but she also gave me other resources (local mental health and hospital contacts) for if she wasn’t available. Honestly, you might just need a different psychiatrist or counselor before making a final decision. Not all mental health professionals are alike. Some are a lot better than others. Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 8:40 pm Zebrasoul, thanks and also to the 2 guys from earlier. Idk… just so tired of getting up everyday going through the same grind. Then there’s also the zoning out. I feel like I’m dreaming all the time, like I’m in someone elses body. Its totally driving me nuts. Just don’t want to do it anymore, you know? Log in to Reply lance2005 1/31/2011 - 9:04 pm Hey. I know…. I feel like I feed my emotions…. I am trying new things something that will wake me up…. when was the last time you got out of the house even though I know it sucks you have to go see a movie or to a concert… All its been for me for a long time is my job. I don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere. Heck I made a deal with god once that I wouldn’t kill myself if he would just show me something different. (not a religious nut had to do something to stop me from killing me) Just recently stopped drinking. Brain feels like all the good/bad memories are turned into a spider and every once in awhile it skitters across my mind reminding me of how bad it is…. but I have stuck around and it gets better. There’s so much more you have not done… heck join the army… My promise to god? I won’t kill myself but I will no longer take steps to preserve my life…. I’m slightly reckless at time… I do things that tempt me on the edge…. My shrink calls me an adrenalin junk…. really I’m just tired of waking up and being alone so I do a million things to occupy myself…. you been to beach lately? long drive? pfft if your going to die GO SEE IT. think you don’t have money for a concert? pfft YOU feel suicidal GO SEE IT. shit I’m jumping out of planes at this point I joined the army. I’ve been to Iraq… and I’m here because my second wife just left me. shit…. I’ve been awake for 3 days…. write to me I need to write to someone….. this is the music I’m listining too right now for the 3 days I’ve been awake http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAGAoy5WZWY let me know something tell me about yourself and I’ll tell you about me just to make time pass we have time right? you have to love time’s like this…. cuse to me? I have all the time in the world…. just waiting around for time to end and holding on brings me closer to that edge between here and there Log in to Reply zebrasoul 1/31/2011 - 9:11 pm We may have different circumstances, but for many of us, our despair and frustration are universal emotions. Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 9:16 pm yeah, well, I just don’t know anymore. Just want out. Life sucks and I’m too tired to keep going. I give up! …. but I can’t find out how to do it, really don’t want to end up brain damaged. Log in to Reply zebrasoul 1/31/2011 - 9:34 pm I had a horrifically crappy counselor a number of years ago, and I basically convinced her that I was “cured” to get away from her. My current counselor is a lot better, even though I still struggle with depression. I understand wanting to end this life, but maybe just try one more person before calling it quits. I only say that because my second experience with a counselor was much better than my first. She’s probably kept me going longer than anyone/anything else these last two years. Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 9:39 pm My shrink is a really nice guy, and I don’t have any problems talking to him. Its just there isn’t any way to help me. I did really well in high school but don’t feel I can go back to school (for nursing) to get out of my dead end job because I can’t concentrate… depersonalization disorder… I zone out or feel like I’m dreaming all the time. I’m stuck and its just hopeless. Log in to Reply miguel 1/31/2011 - 9:54 pm “Honestly, you might just need a different psychiatrist or counselor before making a final decision. Not all mental health professionals are alike.” “you been to beach lately? long drive? pfft if your going to die GO SEE IT” “depersonalization disorder” I believe that you can adapt to any and all disorders and overcome them. Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bhMSA6Chiag She’s the actress from the famous Family Guy episode that made fun of Sarah Palin. Log in to Reply Journey 1/31/2011 - 10:08 pm Thanks, going to bed. Have to get up early for work tmr. Maybe I ‘ll stop back again. Log in to Reply lance2005 1/31/2011 - 10:10 pm Nothing is hopeless…. Take a look at your hands. …. see your self looking at yourself…. you have time…. life hurts… I’m not dramatic… I have to keep occupied I’m tired… your not stuck… your just stuck in a routine…. I find it hard to live with just myself… I have to find a way to build memories….. make yourself anew… it’s working for me….so far…. I am just waiting around until something ends my life…. That is how I see life…. I am going to die…. so I try to have a good time with it… I accept it… when you stop looking at life like it’s never going to end and it’s just one painful hallway…. and start seeing it like it’s a timed clock… ticking your life away…. you begin to see that no one has made it out alive…. It’s your time. your no longer afraid… nothing really matters much…. go play do what you want to do I’m here to not feel alone… and find out how you guys are hanging on… and no I feel like killing myself …. o.O I just know I don’t do things half way… I will do it… and that is the squirrel in the back of my mind…. It won’t be a cry for help. So I’m here… laughing at my life. Log in to Reply when 2/1/2011 - 5:03 am The book “Final Exit” decribes how to do this the euthanasia way. Some people have said that they have tried this method and failed because they have somehow removed the bag from there head while semi-conscious. 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