i have my son and my father, but besides that i’m lost…
i look up all the ways online and nothing is absolute except for jumping off tall buildings
and i dont have the courage…i want something painless and forgiving and in the morning,
i will have done the dishes and cleaned the kitchen and they’ll just have to come in and pack it all up.
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I don’t know what’s going on in your life, but dying won’t fix it. It’s only going to hurt the people that you know you don’t want to hurt. You’ve got a son, you know it wouldn’t be fair to him, imagine him growing up knowing his father left him alone on purpose. I know how it feels to have a parent kill commit suicide. You can’t help but feel guilty, like it was your fault, like you could’ve changed something to stop it, like you just weren’t a good enough reason for them to stay alive. There are so many alternatives to fixing things, you can get help, it’s not too late. And I can’t believe that you would want your son or your father going through that loss when it was unnecessary. Talk to somebody, even a therapist.
Death is never forgiving, if anything it’s the opposite, it brings too much pain to everybody else that gets stuck with living.
eternallyconfused hit the head right on the nail.
most of the time suicide is unselfish
but this is the perfect case of a selfish act of suicide
i’m sorry.
be strong please.