i cant stand on my own

I cant stand on my own… but I’m alone anyway. Everyone seems to think that I will make it past all of this.
“Its no big deal” I cant take all of this, I need air. Air to breathe. Air to live. I’ve tried not cutting but I can’t stop. The need to release all the built up pressure is so overwhelming.
“You need to relax” how can I relax when everything is so wrong? I cant.
I’m tired of crying myself to sleep at night. I’m tired of not having the energy to do anything. I’m so tired of trying to make everyone happy.
I cant make myself happy but can’t someone for once try to make me happy. Am I that invisible of a person?