I can’t take this pain anymore

All my life I was in control of a super fugly man known as myself. All i ever wanted to do in life was talk to girls but unfortunetely this fugly red face and unconfidence prevents me from doing so. I have been so shy in my life that in elementary school I was a loner when it came to girls. At the end of elementary school when everyone was hugging and saying goodbyes, me and my friend were the only guys to not get hugged on that day, that happened two and a half years ago and still haunts me this day. highschool has also been a pain, especially this one girl who I talk to everyday who huggs all these guys but me. I only hugged her once with a help of a friend five months ago almost a month after I tried asking her to give me one but one of her friends told bogus shit about me to her and that stopped it. at the end of the month I tried asking a friend to persuade her to do it, he tried, he failed. During my english class I thought long and hard whether to keep living this life or not because i thought” whats the point in living this life if I can’t hug a single girl”   then i made the decision, I would kill myself at midnight and leave a suicide note on my  facebook profile. Unfortunetely I told one friend of mine but he told another that told my school’s office who sent police to my house to stop me. Sure enough, they succeded. Today however when she said hi to me after hugging a guy fuglier than me, I said “what no hug?” and she said that she only huggs “close friends” even though I have been talking to her for over five months and has only been talking to the other fugly guy for two weeks. Im thinking of skipping that class tommorow and leave a bogus suicide note behind so she’ll actually start to care about me. Should I try it? yes or no