never have. but. I’ve cut 12 times in the past two days…before now I’ve only self harmed 5 times before in the past year.
this isn’t good. the amount of marks on my shoulder…no-one would believe they were ‘from my cat’.
Also. I’ve been paranoid about my wrists my entire life, I hate people touching them, or people drawing on them, or anything; but how come I just etched two red lines into my flesh?
I’ve never admitted it before, Ive always said to myself ‘yes you have agoraphobia, yes you have panic disorder, yes you’re probably bipolar, yes you’ve been sexually assaulted. but you’re NOT depressed’.
But I think I am.