I Miss You. A Letter To Mommy.

Hey mom,
It’s been a while since I’ve seen you. About 9 years actually. I miss you so much even though I don’t remember much about our time together. I’m sorry if I caused you any stress with me being alive. It’s probably my fault you died. I’m sorry. So very sorry. I was only 5 that day when you had your heart problem attack and I was in the room right next to where you were. I saw you fall down and I was so scared. I’m 14 now and I wish you were here with me. It’s hard growing up without you, and I know Rachel and Bri feel the same. I cry everytime I think about dad, though. I can’t possibly imagine the pain he goes through without you beside him to help raise your 3 daughters. I feel empty inside without you, because I never got to make any lasting memories with you except our last memory; the day you died. I’m sorry, eternally sorry. I want to go back in time and save you. But I know that will never happen. I just wanted to let you know how everyone is doing. I just really need my mommy right now. Everything’s so hard to deal with and I fear that I will take drastic measures soon. Please, help me mommy. I miss you.
Love, your daughter, Sammy.