i scare myself so bad. one day im the biggest egomaniac on the planet with plans to star in a movie or start my own clothing line. i laugh uncontrollably but im irritable. yet two days later im quite and feel like i have a giant black hole in my stomach. i cry and burn my arms with a curling iron. during this time i want to kill myself. but when im happy i look back at my scars and it shakes me up inside and makes me feel like im going crazy
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Bipolar…rapid cycling perhaps, go speak to a specialist they might be able to stabilize it for you
but is it possible to have bipolar at 15? lots of rude people, even my parents told me its hormones. i don’t think so though. today i was gonna od on nyquil and extremely stong sleeping pills stopped by phonecall from telemarketer then after chickened out. last time i checked “hormones” don’t make you want to die
I’m going through the same damn thing. I’m very happy and optimistic on some days. Then miserable and suicidal on others. Sometimes it happens in an instant, especially if something triggers it. Initially, I attributed it towards my period/hormones at first. But now I’m considering seeing a doctor to determine if it’s actually manic depression.
hormones my ass. I can tell you there nothing worse then being afraid of your self, but at least you know somethings wrong
Crystal..I am not being rude..when your moods swing from elation to depression it’s called bipolar or manic depression..just trying to help. Hormones don’t make you burn yourself with curling irons! Get a professional opinion that’s all I can suggest to help you..take care x
you’ve got a point bubbles. sorry its happing to you too radiuszero