I’ve felt this way for a long time. It rings true in my mind, everytime I think it: I’m a real asshole.
I don’t have any friends. Well, besides my sister, I guess. (I feel lucky to have her.) The flat out truth is, I am just awful with people. I’m wildly insecure and have a huge inferiority complex, so I constantly say things to piss people off or hurt their feelings. I’ve tried stopping, but then loneliness takes over, and the realization that nobody likes me. So I lash out at people, resentful that they don’t want to be my friend.
Please, understand. I hate me. I wouldn’t want to be around me, if I was someone else, either. I’ve held a knife to my arm and my neck, but I always chicken out. It would destroy my family, and I couldn’t do that to them.
So, what do I do? I’m deeply depressed because I’m such an immature idiot.
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My advice would be if you can’t stop being an “asshole” at least ease up a bit. I had the same problem and because I was a huge ass to everyone I knew I had no friends and my family didn’t particularly like me. I still have a tendency to say the wrong things at the wrong time but not as much. People tend to distance themselves from people like us. Lighten up on being an “asshole” and you’ll see people will come around.
Trust me you are not an asshole and idiot if you still can think (and FEEL) that killing yourself will destroy ur family and that you couldn’t do that to them.
Again, this shows certainly that you do still have feelings and empathy, and that’s certainly NO sign of asshole nor idiot.
You’re probably just confused, and need to work out on certain/specific areas of ur weaknesses.
Everybody has his/her own weakness that he/she needs to learn to tackle ’em, in order to be the BEST of him/herself. That’s just normal, that’s what being human is all about.
We learn, we grow.
Perhaps what you might better ask and find out is the Core thing, ie: why or what makes u feel insecure and feel inferior around people?
Each person is different and certainly have positive things to offer to the world..just keep this in mind for a start.
Mann
Shits hard. I like being an asshole. Makes you feel a whole lot better.
But it doesnt change shit.
People dont like hanging out with assholes. Well its only half true,
assholes like hanging out with assholes.
If you want to hang out with nice people be nice.
I use to/still am cursed with crappy social skills. i hate it how one sentence can ruin anything. I just feel so out place, Everyone else just seems to blend together. i if i want friends, i have to pretend to be like them, So they will accept me. Its pritty gay being fake but at least you get to talk to someone
Theres a million books, that will help u,
Humans dont like different, They like the same.
If you dont like being different be the same.
If you dont want to be the same
just embrace youself find a activity that dignifies you.
Being nice and open is the easiest way, just forget it all
start again. Move to a different place
First things first ur a nice asshole i know im phycic.I had a class called group guidance and man that shit is BORING 😀 Everybodies insecure all u gotta do is focus on aaaaaaaall the positive things about urself DONT U DARE SAY THERES NOTHING POSITIVE ABOUT U!!! evryones got something and u may not know it now but just wait for ur calling i know you’ll find it soon cuz like i said im phycic. I WISH U LUCK = D
I don’t know how old you are but from the age of 11 to 17 I felt like a real asshole to and I had ne reel friends ad even to others I was more of a backup wether it was at school or out doing activities I was alwats left out no matter how much I would get involved. About 5 months ago I met a friend who was in the same situation that I was in when I came to a college abroad. It was his first time in the UK for college he had been at school abroad all his life and so had I. So we had loads of things in common. People would always treat us differently because we were bought up in a different culture. We became best friends and we clicked like that. People even joke about us being gay because we are so close.
What I am basicly saying is those whom have less for a while will end up with much more at the end and you will be more greatfull than those whom have had everything. Everyone else i knwo had best friends and didn’t see anything good about having a best friend. When I had my best friend it was wonderful. We are like brothers now and have the most amazing relationship/friendship and people are really jealous which isn’t something that makes me happy but the fact that I may have been unluky at the beggining but better things come afterwoods and normally better than everybody else.
I’ve also thought of committing suicide about 5 times and I am 18 and everytime I am about to I think of my best friend and how distroyed he would be I never think of my parents because although we get on well we have nothing in common and have no same interrests and I moved out when I was 16.
DON’T FEEL LIKE AN ASSHOLE YOU WILL END UP WITH BETTER THINGS THAN EVERYBODY ELSE. I Have a special friendshipa nd you being so close to your sister is a good thing although he is some social advice. Go and meet some new people and listen to there conversations and see what they are like and there character. Never discuss politics, religion, dreams or race differences. If you get to know a person you know what they are like and you just need to blend in and then slowly show yourself. Dont hang with them to often because it may look like you are desprate and don’t laugh at your own jokes and talk about yourself constantly. Please email me for more advice i study media and psycologie so I have a good eye and eay. 😀