I never would have thought i would be writing a post like this one. December was the hardest month of my life. I was so sad in December…A lot of bad things successively happened to me. I was so down that i even considered suicide! God was i stupid… now i realize that i was going through a TEMPORARY problem… thank god i did not do anything stupid.
My family has shown me over and over again how much they love me and care for me. I am a lucky girl. I think i was so down because i just wanted to feel loved by my loved one…by people close to me 🙂
Everything seems to be going back on track now…i’m turning 25 next week, yesterday my long time friend confessed his love to me. My sister got admitted to the university of Melbourne 🙂 My aunt just had a baby…i am sooo happy. I’m going back to the Caribbean in the next few weeks 🙂 I’m finished with my studies…i just feel like life is opening its arms to me…People please if you EVER consider suicide think again!!! it is not the solution. You will be missing a lot out of life !
Sometimes when things go really bad in our lives we forget all the blessings we have… during December i got really sad,so sad that i focused on the negative. Which in reality is less than 5% of my life…
i pray things also work out for all of you guys. NEVER give up hope!!! I know I’m a little bit different than most of you guys because i was never diagnosed with depression and has never been on any meds but still i went through a hard time and considered suicide at a point…so you can still learn from me.
I will always be there if you need encouragement or support 🙂 Never give up!
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lala..some people have no money to go to the carribean, no friends, nobody that declares their love to them and no family to speak of…just sayin
Im happy for you and glad that it all worked out but like you said your different you werent diagnosed with depression and havent been on meds so you really wouldnt understand that dealing with mental illness isn’t a tempory problem its not just a phase it isn’t gonna just magically dissapear but i guess thanks for the encouragement anyway
i am sorry bubbles75…i did not wanted it to sound that way..I truly thought that my joy would inspire you guys and make u feel like something good is awaiting you too…
By the way i am a broke college graduate lol I go to the Caribbean because it is my country of origin and i am done with my studies in the US.
If you want to talk of what u r going through anytime i will be there for you…if u need encouragement i will always be there…
Bubbles75….i care!
much love 🙂
Ye bubbles get your self a job and move to a cheaper apaartment.
@lala I didn’t mean to sound mean or anything, I am actually doing quite well compared to a lot of people on this site..sorry for being a *****! It’s just that I feel some people’s lives really are desperate. Anyhows good for you and lucky you for living somehwhere as beautiful as the carribean…I wish I lived somewhere like that, I love the culture, the music and the laid backness of it all, it will do wonders for you..I think you have a great future over there, great men, great beaches, nature and all that. Maybe it was the US that made you depressed. Put it all behind you and enjoy the carribean vibe for us all that can’t do it. The west stinks…I would rather live in a tribe in the amazonian forest, that’s the kind of girl I am..a bit weird I guess..:))
@Blackqwert..i worked in london earning shit loads of money and I owned a 4 bed house and I ended up sectioned in a mental hospital 4 times for stress…so for now fuck work and fuck the rat race. I’m gona start a home based business and even if I earn shit money I am happy to not have to deal with people on a constant overdose of testostrone every frikkin day. I live with my mum and brother and it’s cheap and fuck the rest. I just need a man to love me and I can’t find him…thats the real problem..
Bubbles im not here for love ok im here because i exit soon
you sound cool you should go to a date site.
@ blackqwert..don’t make me sad, you still haven’t told me why you want to exit…damn! I am trying dating sites but I keep finding creeps or people I do not want to share my life with..it’s not easy when you feel you don’t get on with 90% of the population! You should be here for love because I love you! I understand how you would rather have a different life but maybe I can help you achieve this…will you let me help? (I bet u you won’t answer)