Well i spent most of today thinking about suicide and how i would do it, from research i came to the conclusion i would use helium tank and an exit bag… though i am still thinking about it more in depth before i commit.
I guess you think about people who know you, family and how it will effect them, I have even thought of the song i want played at my funeral. I guess it really related to my life here are some lyrics..
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
Im tired of the everyday struggle, no one i know is really happy, its all working, paying off a mortgage, I always think that things will be better in the future, leaving me never to be happy in the present.
Well this is all i have to say, thanks.