there’s really only one thing I wish for in my life. I just wish that I could make someone’s life better in any way, shape, or form. So far, with pretty much everyone in my life I’ve been a burden. But I will do anything to help someone out, make them feel better, make their lives easier. I would do things not because I wanted to, but rather because I wanted to see that person happy, even if it was for a moment. Yet, the most important person in my life isn’t benefiting from this. I am not happy making everyone else happy. I used to be happy just from receiving that gratitude or acknowledgment, but lately a lot of people take me for granted. I don’t even know what I want to do with myself anymore. I guess I’ve just been handing out my assistance and people are assuming I’ll do everything for them.That’s why I want to leave this life. Everyone around me is taking advantage of my generosity and are starting to be lazy but not doing it themselves. If I’m not here, then maybe they’ll return to their productivity, and I can finally make myself genuinely happy for once.
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Someone once told me “you cant help anyone else, unless you can help yourself” Its sounds selfish, but in the end your more healthy and happy, and you can help other people be healthy and happy. I suggest taking a few days off of school or work, or whatever you do and take care of your self for a bit
People are too worried about their own problems and you should do the same, worry about your problems first and foremost.
@lost_soul: you sound similar like me.. and I’ve finally started to realize that what BlueHero and bubbles said above is true.
And besides, some people are NOT worth to be helped (especially ALL the time!),
especially the *babies* type and also the damn *taking advantage* ones. It’s actually by letting them help THEMselves, you have truly helped them. Trust me, I’ve read about this in an article just few days ago. That’s why I am telling you this.
What’s most important to realize is that YOU deserve the most help of yourself.
Call it “selfish” or whatever, but in reality it’s not.
Because as long as you’re safe, healthy, in good condition, then you can always also help others. But you can’t help others when you neglect YOURself, your health, mental health, etc.
Even most altruistic and ‘selfless’ person like Mother Theresa, Gandhi, Jesus, Buddha, of you notice, they’re all already well being FIRST and foremost (note that I’m not saying *wealthy*, to prove to you that living happy doesn’t always mean lots of money!), and then they started to help a lot of other people around them.
So it’s never selfish, as long as you always know ur place, and balanced life.
And trust me that although humans are instinctively self-preserving themselves (from our evolutionary natural instincts), thus many seem to be “selfish” only caring about themselves and not others,..know also that this Nature is also FULL of cooperation, harmony, helping out (eg: dolphins, ants), so it’s NOT like what those so-called ‘evolutionary intellects’ often told or teach us that it’s all a matter of “survival of fittest” only! No, that’s just wrong!
And always remember that humans are also social beings,
so trust me that there would certainly be people who will truly APPRECIATE ur helps and kind-heart.
In fact, it’s what the world really needs now, to rebuild its Global Spiritual Awakening path, for a better System for the whole species on planet Earth.
No more selfish, cruel, damn deceitful ‘money’ system in the future, it will crumble down!
We’re all motivated by fear or love….what are your true intentions for wanting to help others. That’s a great sentiment. Perhaps allow the opportunity to present itself and you will be helping others. We all need purpose, but we all need to learn how to help ourselves….some simply can’t and that’s another situation all together. For me, when I genuinely have the opportunity to help someone and it comes from an authentic place in me where I am not looking for anything in return, it’s win-win. The genuine giving of yourself naturally gives back to you. Sounds like you’re obsessing about it. Again, if you want to help…then help, but obviously if someone is taking you for granted, that’s a message for you to establish some boundaries for yourself. Everyone needs to learn that. Cheers!