On the saerface, i am sane, stable, successful and have never had even the most remote chance of ending my life. As of late (last 6-9 months) it seems a viable alternative. I cannot take the pain any more. The pressure. The sense of failure. Depression prevents me moving forward in any area. Unfortunately, I am a true single parent with an 11 year old son–(No mom–just us). so if i end it–he’ll be set financially but emotionally it’l be a tough road to deal with. I am lost, lost, lost..lonely, scared, and such a fake–on the outside everyone thinks I’m together, a giving person, a guy whogets it done…….it isd never as it seems. i am scared as i d have the gun and I do have enough pills to end it. Just so lonely, lost, and confused. Any thoughts?

Hi, I can relate to your feelings because I am a single mother with two sons – 10 and 13. If it weren’t for them I would be out of here tomorrow, and glad to be gone, but for their sake I am trying to keep going as long as possible. Like you I have everything ready in order to leave this world behind. One thing that has been helping me recently is that rather than saying to myself “I’ve got to keep going until these children are grown up” is to just promise myself I will keep going until Easter time, and then I’ll set a new goal. It kind of makes it easier. Sticking around for a few more weeks seems possible, while thinking that I have to survive here for years seems horrible.
What are the pressures that you face? Why have things got worse in the last 6-9 months. If they can get worse, maybe they can get better too!