General See you in another life. by unhappy times 1/25/2011 written by unhappy times 1/25/2011 Well today is the day! Spent 20 years trying to make it work but ive failed. If I don’t post again, the helium method works! Ttfn! 22 comments 0 Email Related posts ¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!¡!.¡!¡!¡!¡!¡! 10/15/2021 I don’t understand myself either 10/15/2021 Don’t want to rot away in an elder... 10/15/2021 Sleeping pills 10/15/2021 bit by bit 10/14/2021 I HATE WINDOWS UPDATES 10/14/2021 Like a dying star 10/14/2021 attempts: what was going through your mind? 10/14/2021 why 10/13/2021 i cant do this anymore 10/13/2021 22 comments englishboy. 1/25/2011 - 2:28 pm Hopefully we wont see you in another life, hopefully you will be happy enough to never have to come across this website or anything similar. If this is what you really want then Good Luck :). Log in to Reply blackqwert 1/25/2011 - 2:58 pm Hay how many tank’s youe got? Log in to Reply when 1/25/2011 - 3:07 pm shit man, you could have said how you are doing it, what type of tank, etc, etc. I’m doing it this way, (i hope) I want to make sure it works, if it does NOT work for you, please tell us why. If it does work, I’m pleased for you. Log in to Reply n o o m 1/25/2011 - 4:31 pm good luck! have a peaceful journey to wherever. get the 50 baloon tank.1 is all you need Log in to Reply eternallyconfused 1/25/2011 - 5:10 pm 20 years seems like a lot of time to throw away. If you worked so hard for that long why would you give up now? What’s going to happen to the people that love you if you do this? You’re family, your friends, it’s going to hurt them beyond repair. They’ll probably even feel guilty for it. If you can’t stay in this shitty life for yourself you should at least do it for them. I know what it feels like to want to die, the only reason I haven’t killed myself years ago is that I know what it’s like to have somebody you love decide to take their own life. It’s not the same as accidental death, it rips you up inside knowing there could’ve been something you did or didn’t do to change it. Please don’t kill yourself, talk to somebody, get a therapist, tell somebody what’s going on. I know I don’t know you and it could even be too late, but it’s not worth it. Maybe you will be happier, or maybe you’ll just cease to exist which used to seem good enough to me. But it’s selfish, and it’s something you can’t ever take back. What’s wrong with you people? Somebody says they’re going to kill themself and you say good luck? Have a nice journey??? It’s sickening. Death is not the way out or the answer to anything. All it’s going to do is cause everybody else pain. If you’re really in pain enough to do it, you should feel a little compassion to what it’s going to do to everyone. Why would you want to make people feel the way that you’re feeling? Log in to Reply eternallyconfused 1/25/2011 - 5:13 pm If I had ever found out that my aunt posted something like this and got responses like those, I would’ve tracked every single one of you down and saved you the trouble of offing yourself. Log in to Reply hard2kill 1/25/2011 - 5:23 pm Good luck my friend. If you find yourself alone… riding in green fields with the sun on your face… do not be troubled. For you are in Elysium… and you’re already dead! Log in to Reply Souglyiwanttodie 1/25/2011 - 5:23 pm Good luck! I’m going to hang myself tonight so see you on the other side. 😀 Log in to Reply glamgirl 1/25/2011 - 6:12 pm Please dont do this alone. I will help you and you could help me too Log in to Reply blackqwert 1/25/2011 - 6:25 pm I saw your picture glamgirl. what your doin here. Log in to Reply andrewgrey715 1/25/2011 - 6:30 pm [ Whatâ€™s wrong with you people? Somebody says theyâ€™re going to kill themself and you say good luck? Have a nice journey??? Itâ€™s sickening. Death is not the way out or the answer to anything. All itâ€™s going to do is cause everybody else pain. If youâ€™re really in pain enough to do it, you should feel a little compassion to what itâ€™s going to do to everyone. Why would you want to make people feel the way that youâ€™re feeling? ] We are just fucked up in the head I guess. What makes you think the other side is worse than the earth you worship? Why do “survivors” always care so much after the fact. It’s been said, ‘for some people, this world ain’t never gonna be right’. Just because life’s troubles are tolerable for you doesn’t mean it is for someone else. When people feel like no one cares about them anymore, they say screw everyone, so at that point who cares who’s feelings they hurt by capping themselves. There is a popular misconception in this world that everyone is the same. Log in to Reply andrewgrey715 1/25/2011 - 6:33 pm And to EC: Death IS an answer to many, many things. To some, death is pure salvation. Hurting family/them beyond repair? How about the suicide guy that is eternally beyond repair in all endeavors. Log in to Reply andrewgrey715 1/25/2011 - 6:34 pm [ If I had ever found out that my aunt posted something like this and got responses like those, I wouldâ€™ve tracked every single one of you down and saved you the trouble of offing yourself. ] Oh, so you do support death? Log in to Reply blackqwert 1/25/2011 - 6:38 pm I guess We fuck up. Ok talkin for my self i love life the world. I can not live like this & i think the people who know me know it & there be more hurt seein me this way. This is not esey Log in to Reply blackqwert 1/25/2011 - 6:46 pm Andrewgrey are you with god tryin to save us Log in to Reply Open Diary 1/25/2011 - 9:01 pm You shouldn’t of posted this online. Log in to Reply eternallyconfused 1/25/2011 - 11:47 pm No, I don’t support death, I suppose I was just angry. It hurts knowing that I can’t help anyone, especially when it gets thrown back in my face. You know, I’ve tried committing suicide more times than I can count, and I wish there could have been somebody back then that knew how I felt and actually wanted to help instead of just encouraging me. My aunt was pretty much my mother, my mom couldn’t take care of us so we were left to my aunt. She wasn’t the greatest caretaker to say the least. She beat the hell out of me and only me out of my other two siblings and cousin because I was the only one who didn’t show any emotion, I’ve studied a little psychology and I figure it’s because of that. She wanted to know she had that power over us, I watched her hurt my big sis and little brother but they would cry, or become upset so she would cry and say how sorry she was and it was this whole big thing. But with me it was different, I bottled everything up, I sat like a fucking statue while she beat me or told my uncle to do it. I didn’t cry, or yell. And she hated that so she just beat me more. Life was pretty bad and this all happened when I was young, even though I felt very old. I thought I hated her for the things she did to me, and then years later after she beat me one last time and kicked me out (I moved to kc to live with my mom) she found out her husband was cheating on her, so she killed herself. I hate myself for being so angry with her, I wish I had said I forgiven her or that I was sorry for never opening up, but I didn’t. She was in the hospital for 5 days and no one even told me. Not until she died. I’m 19 now but I feel like I’m a hundred years old. I’ve felt ready for death for a very long time. So I think life’s troubles are tolerable? If you had a look at all of the scars on my body you probably wouldn’t say that. I’ve failed at suicide so many times I’ve lost track. But I don’t go around saying ok you’re in pain just like me go for it, off yourself. People who let the pain in others go on as if it’s ok just because they felt the same way are as bad as the people who caused it. You can think I just don’t understand, or you can think it’s different for me, but I know what death is like, both sides of it. I know how bad it hurts the people left behind, and I know how bad it hurts to just want to die. It’s funny, that for a site I found in a moment of desperation the other day, one I thought was filled with people who hurt and might be able to relate, or god forbid, help, so far I’ve found plenty of people who just want me to go ahead and give in to the pain inside of me. People who think the weakness is a messed up form of strength. Don’t talk to me about being messed up in the head like I’m the sane one, you have no idea how fucked up I really am, or how screwed up my life is right now. I still wouldn’t say ok go for it to somebody who wanted to kill themself, even after all of the horrible shit I’ve been through. I always assumed caring about somebody else made me human. I’m starting to realize that you’re all human, and I really am the monster I feel like. Maybe monsters are the only ones who give a damn anymore. Log in to Reply eternallyconfused 1/26/2011 - 4:10 am What, can’t think of anything to insult me with now? Oh come on, couldn’t be that hard when I do it to myself all the time. Log in to Reply Tiffany 1/26/2011 - 4:32 am I’m thinking of using sleeping pills… I know of people saying that it doesn’t work and you just vomit it out, though. But I’ve watched the movie “The Virgin Suicides” (Good movie!) and decided to do what Lux did, sit in the car with it running and close the garage door. While listening to my favourite dance, trance songs. Also, eternallyconfused, you’re on the wrong website. Death is the answer to many things, not all, but many. And it saves a LOT more pain/trouble than if you were alive. (Not you personally, just whoever wants to commit suicide for LEGIT reasons). Log in to Reply paul_1991 1/26/2011 - 4:49 am No one should ever encouage another person to kill themselves or tell them they are doing the right thing by ending their own life fullstop. That is not something that should ever happen. Feeling suicidal is one thing but if other people encourage those feelings then that is another and not what this site should be about, I am not preaching or trying to make anyone feel bad or anger anyone just saying what I think, everyone should be encourage to live their lives not end it. The thoughts of ending it are there is almost all of us and they seem so tempting but you have to try and tell yourself they are wrong and not hear that ending is right or you will believe it, get some real help and try to sort things. It will be up and down but there must be a way through, there simply must. Log in to Reply eternallyconfused 1/26/2011 - 5:13 am If you are still alive, then you are not beyond repair. Just because I don’t say, oh yeah go ahread and kill yourself, doesn’t mean I don’t know what it’s like to want to die. I assumed this site was about helping people who wanted to commit suicide when I found it a few days ago. So glad ro find so many people who want to help someone. Suicide is not the answer, it’s the easy way out. Fighting is hard, it’s fucking exhausting, so what. Do it anyway, you aren’t the only people who want to die, who have had a messed up child hood or life, it’s not easy. I fight the urge to kill myself every second that I am alone, but I do, because I know that there has to be something better around the corner, and I don’t want to miss it. I’ve been insulted thousands of times over my life, I think this is the first time that it was over me trying to help somebody else live theirs. Log in to Reply miguel 1/27/2011 - 12:03 am Saying this because I really think you’re gone by now. RIP amigo Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.