I have been reading posts for a couple weeks now and it is so sad that there are so many young people on here in so much pain. I am 37 and have always had some depression but nothing like the last couple months. In November I decided I wanted to end it all so I have decided to do it at the end of this month. It has been a challenge waiting that long but didnt want to ruin the holidays for the family and also wanted to see my dad one last time which I am doing next week. Why do I want to end it all? Well like I said I am 37, never been married and no kids. I have always thought I would have that dream family with the white picket fence blah blah blah and the sad thing is I could have had that many times by now but was too stupid or just not ready to commit and now pretty much everyone I know has that family and I am here alone. And now it seems like I just attract all the crazy women! I know that I am not too old to still have a family but I have gotten to the point that I hate the person that i am and have become and just cant live with myself any more. I am so incredibly tired that I literally need to pull myself out of bed in the morning just to let the dog out. Its not that I dont like living, I’m just not very good at it so the end is near and it cant come soon enough….