yeah. I posted “fuck it” dec. 15th… guess it was my many shitty outcry attempts, but idk. So i watch the days pass, wanting it all to end but not sure what the fuck i want to really do… i’m a college student, and one who has the world in his hands. i’m at the point where the sky literally, and any other way you can take it, is the limit. but i see less and less of a point. “WHY?” blares in my head (not literally) daily when i see myself in the future… i believe in God, although i have fallen pretty far from Him, and the way i see thing is: in the end, we’ll all be in heaven or hell – and no one will have memory of things they did on earth. i know we all have someÂ purposeÂ in life God planned out for us that we are supposed to strive to achieve, but there are detailed reasons why i dont think it’s worth it. so yeah, this is actually my 2nd post, but i’d count it as my first seeing as its my “intro”… comment if you like.