My name is Samantha, I am 12 years old and I have been having Suicidal thoughts for about eight months now.
I don’t know why, I just realy hate the modern world and think every one lost touch with there individually,
and I just think that is very Depressing. Other than that I have no Idea why I feel so suicial.
I have always been pretty diffrent than every one else.
I’m a bit socaily awkward, I think that is from being home schooled my whole life.
I have been depressed since I was 10, so for about 2 years now.
When I was 11 I started to look for some thing to believe in And what I found was Grunge/Punk music,
it was the music of the sad and rejected, I just love the way it makes me feel!
Laiter after I found Grunge music, I found who is now my hero, Kurt Cobain.
The more I found out about Kurt Cobain, the more I relised that him and I have a lot in comen.
He was the greatest man that ever lived and he thought suicide was a great idea.
What I’m tring to say is that:
No madder how much money he had, or not even love or a CHILD change the way he thought of the word,
Why I would it change my mind?
5 comments
Kurt made beautiful music and lived a life three times longer than you. He killed himself for totally different reasons. You should try public school, friends and teams would do you so much good. I can’t even describe the thrill you get from being part of a club or a team because you get friends that you’ll remember for helping you through your situation.
I love Kurts music I remember discovering him around your age. I hope you don’t do it Samantha I hope you realize it’s a horrible mistake you can’t ever ever fix.
1. punk rock is the best music in the world. Listen to The Clash, Dillinger Four, None More Black
2. I’ve been depressed since I was 10 and I’ve made it to 21. You can at least make it that far.
Kurt cobain was murdered
12 yrs old….wow.-Talk to someone. Sounds like you’re pretty sensitive, that’s part of why you may feel different. I would hesitate to come to any conclusions about the world…especially at your age. Have you read anything about Indigos? Take care.
Indigo children! Yes look that up on google or whatever else. It can give you some insight and judging from this post it seems fitting for you. I found out about them a long time ago and it changed my view of a few things.