i discovered this site all of 5 mintues ago, and i signed up. Im not sure why. Out of impulse, out of need, or maybe out of sheer desperation. this thing’s called the ‘suicide project’ . does that mean that someone’s actually trying to help us? someone actually cares / hmm. i bet they too are lying. Becasue no body cares. the word it’self is overrated. it’s safe to say i’ve forgotten the meaning of the word care. you may wonder why, or maybe, jsut maybe like everyone else, you dont care, therefor you dont wonder. however, im doing this for me, so i’ll say it any way. what was i going to say? i forgot..
i cried tonight. because im tired, exhausted. it’s been a while now that i just dont care. boy do i hate that word.
” i care sophie, i care ” no you don’t, noobody cares. and why should they ? who the hell am i to them ?
I don’t care, why should you.
Im so tired. Im 16 and life exhausts me. isn’t that sad. isnt that pathetic ?
i no longer have the energy to care. infact, i no longer have the enegry to do much. I go to the most expensive school in pakistan, and all this money is being spent on me because apparently im CARED for. but i dont want it. i don’t want their money. there pitty or sympathy. No thank you, i’ve had enough charity to last me a life time.
To be perfectly honest with whoever it is reading this, i don’t know why im writing here. i think if anyone REALLY wanted to die, they wouldnt suscribe to this website, they’d jsut kill themselves and get it over with.They wouldn’t feel the need to publicise why they want to die, and how they plan on going about it. they’d just do it. Im doing it becasue i don’t trust myself, i dont feel safe in my own skin. isn’t that a strange thought ? well anyway i don’t. And i do think i will kill myself. soon enough. but im writing here so if anyone who ‘cares’ Â wants to find out why i did it, maybe they’ll end up going through my laptop history, see the sites i’ve been going on, and hopefully they’ll end up here. then they’ll know why i did it. why am i so self obsessed ? Becasue im a *****.
It’s true; death is easy. Life is harder.