Things that happend today!!!

MY MOM IS GONNA SEND ME TO JESUS CAMP!!! apparently my mom says  im insane and i dont have any beleifs in god.ok this is alittle about me.For the people who havent figured it out yet im a girl born january 3rd.School is sooooo boring i dont see the purpose in it anymore i guess its the one place i can go to get away from my family.Last week me and my mom were fighting the whole weekend and im hopeing she’ll just leave me alone this weekend.Yesterday i did everything possible to piss off my substitute father (moms boyfriend) i had the radio on vol.18 and he kept on putting it to 17 he was threatning me saying how he’s gonna take the radio away and i havent heard it all day but of course like i predicted he never took the radio away.He always has my mom fight his battles.I wish i had those parents who dont come home ’till 5 in the morning they did that last night and the week before and it was so peaceful.Today in school my friends y and p said to me that ive changed the last couple of days they said that im not doing my h.w im not caring im flunking tests and im being disrespectful now everything other then the disrespectful prt is true they all told me this in music (3rd period class) just because i said i wanted to fail math class just to make my parents mad cuz u gotta idmit when my mom is mad her face is just soooo imusing it just makes my day.Ive been feeling empty alot lately and i dont know why sometimes i just could be left alone.I have the type of friends who care about me and are not only over portective but also possesive they’re to happy for me and hanging around them just drains my energy.There must be something wrong with me like do i have a sighn on my forehead that says “i want to be your friend” they’re so annoying but there my friends.They come to me for help when they have problems and i give them the best advice i can.Im cutting again and i say again because i lost the safety pin i was useing but now i found a new one i remeber the first time like it was yesterday i came back from the library and what do i see my mom and sub dad fighting i cant remember why they were fighting but i knew it was stupid.This fight was worse then the others there was screaming doors slamming pushing the works my families really loud so imagine that.My family lives in their own world while me  and my dog soufle live in reality.Ive decided not to depend on my friends not even on my bestest friend in the whole universe im afraid im burdening them with my crappy life so im cutting all ties and not telling them my problems.Ive refrianed frm telling my mother i love her because i dont she tells me all the time and i see it in her eyes she wants me to respond with the same but i cant i just give her alittle mmm and im off.I guess im gonna have to jump off a building,i would hhang myself if their was anything to hang my self with in our apartment,i would shoot myself if i had a gun and i would overdose but unforttionatly i see health programs so when i saw this guy needed to get his stomach pumped for accidently overdoseing on pain killers.if anyone wants to kow im hispanic. Well i guess im done hit me up on my email if u wanna know anything.