In many ways I have had an extraordinarily good life, but all along the way there were challenges. I have been through good times and bad, and always managed to survive. Now for several years I have found my life slowly declining from too many simultaneous physical and emotional challenges. I have sought help from professionals, family and friends. I have tried to be the ‘strong’ person everyone was accustomed to, but when I could no longer be strong and needed help, there was none to be found. Only denial, rejection, disbelief, apathy, and finally abandonment. I am now alone, with no resources left to keep trying to help myself, and no one to turn to. I can rationally realize that it doesn’t have to be this way or stay this way, but I can’t seem to grasp those bootstraps again. I need help and there is none to be found. I read everywhere that help is only a phone call away. I have tried and find that unless suicide is threatened, no one is willing to even listen. I DO NOT WANT TO DIE. I do not want to just survive. I want to LIVE. But time and options seem to be quickly running out.
Thanks for listening…
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What’s you problem? help with what.