i am fifteen and am home by myself most of theÂ time. my little brother is the happiest kid i know. my mom acts like a teenager and goes out all the time, leaving me and my brother home alone. and well, my dad is dead. lately ive been the most unhappy person you could probably ever meet in your life. ever. i am always having to hide how i feel. i wish i could tell my mom that i smoke weed to make myself feel better and to escape reality. but even weed hasn’t been helping my problems lately. i am alone. my friends dont want me anymore. im scared that my life isn’t going to end up going anywhere since i am already failing school. and my health problems are fucking up my life.
i just want it to end. who can tell me a quick and painless way to make all of this end? something that i can do at home while my brother is at school and my mom is at work? i dont want to hurt them, but im tired of hurting myself. please help me.