I’m 16 and i hate myself. When i was 15 my mother died of cancer and with her gone, the only person who really ever understood me. My father hates me, my friends dislike my presence, and i just dont seem to fit anywhere. I look like I’m fine and I have it all together, but i wake up every morning and i just wish i were dead. I’m supposed to be a Christian, but I don’t know how much of it i believe anymore, i suppose i feel like killing my self would be a sin, and I don’t want to go to hell, but I also feel like im experiencing my own hell on earth. So I’m just not sure what to do anymore, my life just seems to be getting worse, I have depression, and i don’t feel as if anything or anyone is able to help.