So I just learned that my dad won’t let my friend Meghan come over for a sleepover. We were planning on screwing with my keyboard maybe doing some dub stuff in an effort to start a band and do something creative with our lives.
Which sounds fucking awesome if my Dad would let us sleep in the same fucking room. His plan is that Meghan sleeps in the upstairs bedroom away from me because he assumes we’re gonna do it.
OH, THANKS. I’M CLEARLY A FUCKING RAPIST OR A PERVERT. What the fuck!? You’re my fucking Dad, you asshole! So now what? OH yeah! I can’t have a fucking social life because of it! “Oh no biggies, we’re just gonna separate you just to swell the awkward like a fucking helium balloon!”
It’s not just that that gets to me though, see, my parents also believe I’m a terrorist and won’t let me go on the internet or my computer after 8 PM, with the excuse that “We don’t know what you’re doing on there and turning off electronics will help you sleep.” Well big news Dave, I fucking cry myself to sleep because I can’t sleep in this bullshit 50 year old bed you gave me. Not only that, but, oh yes, I’m NOT A FUCKING NAZI. Jesus christ. I know it sounds stereotypical but WHY DO PARENTS MAKE SUCH BULLSHIT ASSUMPTIONS ABOUT THE TEEN IMAGE!? Maybe we wouldn’t BE so stereotypical if YOU WEREN’T IN THE FIRST PLACE!
Unbeknown to most people I know (outside of sp), I have all the tools needed to kill myself in my very room, including a very very sturdy cable and the knowledge to tie a hangman’s knot. But I don’t. Why? Because I believe in myself. I want to fucking have friends, I want to have someone to be there for me. Hell, I’m piss close to that too. But people like Dave and Clarizze fucking hold me back to the brink of insanity and worry about me when I crack occasionally. Jesus christ, people.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
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How old are you? Are they your real parents and why the hell would they think that your a terrorist?
I’m 15 and apparently they’re real. They’ve treated me like shit since my birth.
It sucks that your parents aren’t willing to trust you and your friend together. I ran into similar bullshit with my best friend when I was around your age, since he was a guy and I’m not. Never mind that neither of us was remotely attracted to the other and nothing was ever going to happen between us. It’s incredibly frustrating when people won’t take you at your word because they assume you’re too young to control yourself or know your own mind. I remember how shitty that was, and I’m sorry you’re going through it now.
I’m glad you still believe in yourself, that you don’t have immediate plans to kill yourself despite having the means. Having even a little hope can go a long way — hang onto it as long as you can.
i think you need to calmdown Noodle12. From what you have put down here, you have no reason to kill yourself. How old are you. Parents can have trouble accepting there children are growing up. Unless you are at the ‘legal’ age to have sex, I would want you and Meghan to sleep in different room
Paramore are a terrible band.
I agree completely with “when”. You are completely off the balance. Actually on reading you, I am surprised that your dad is not more concerned yet. Probably because he has not read you. But you are coming to a suicide postings because your father does not let you sleep in the same room as with a girl. Why the fuck do you have to talk about rape ? it doesnt take a rape to leave a girl pregnant. If you put a girl inside your room and you are a horny teeenager, it would be a bid against the odds that you dont get a hardon and she does you a favor and you two screw up. It is not about morality that I am speaking, it is about that is fucking risky to have a girl at night, unseen and not make a mistake. I know there is something called a condom, but again on reading you, I would not bet much that you were going to use it or use it properly. You would probably fuck up, and your father would be responsible for whatever happens to that girl. You dont realize and you dont care, but that girl has a father and his father would make yours accountable. Legally also. So stop being a heavy metal freak and normalize yourself shit! cool down, and enjoy things in without psycho extremes