General <3 by indigo rain 2/26/2011 written by indigo rain 2/26/2011 My heart is such a nuisance, always reminding me that i am still alive 28 comments 0 Email Related posts Are you a judgmental prick? 10/28/2021 Most comfortable way to go 10/27/2021 10/27/2021 Borderline Personality Disorder 10/27/2021 Ga 10/26/2021 being reminded 10/26/2021 Shit Show 10/26/2021 Disappointment. 10/25/2021 hollow 10/25/2021 :B P.R.I.D.E 10/25/2021 28 comments life sucks thin u die 2/26/2011 - 12:28 am i feel you there idk how many times i thought that Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/26/2011 - 12:31 am Yeah i know what you mean and this is gonna sound weird but like sometimes i sit there and i can feel my heart beating hard and fast and i think well my hearts still beating so im still alive but yet i feel like im already dead Log in to Reply life sucks thin u die 2/26/2011 - 12:36 am it doesnt sound weired but i get the same thing Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/26/2011 - 12:41 am this site is addictive. I feel like i can type whatever i’m thinking. then it’s weird to find out that other people have had the same thought. know what i mean? Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/26/2011 - 12:42 am and i don’t have to care what you guys think about me because i will never meet any of you Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/26/2011 - 12:43 am i guess what i’m saying is that i don’t feel judged, which is a rare occurance Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/26/2011 - 1:33 am My heart only reminds of what I had and how happy I was, I hate it Log in to Reply Deep abyss 2/26/2011 - 1:45 am @paul_1991: I understand exactly what you mean. I would remember how happy I was before and it only makes me feel worse than I already am feeling. Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/26/2011 - 1:54 am You can give someone your heart and you give them your life and they choose to break it, it hurts so much. You know you would do anything for them but they wouldn’t do the same. I don’t know how to make the feeling go away and I have ended up on antidepressants but I wish you all the best in your healing. Log in to Reply Deep abyss 2/26/2011 - 2:15 am I know what you mean. Some people are just like that. In minutes and seconds, they can forget all about what you’ve done for them or the time you spent together and just ignore you. I didn’t try antidepressants, so I’m not gonna be healing. Just finding a good way to end my life. I know the pain from how someone breaks your heart. Even if it’s not a lover, but just a friend or a family member.. it can be devastating. I’ve had everyone done that to me. I wish you the best with your healing and improving. Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/26/2011 - 2:39 am To be honest and still am but I saw how much it would hurt my family so I’m trying antidepressants as a last hope. Log in to Reply Deep abyss 2/26/2011 - 2:41 am Since you’re trying to live, good luck. I’m sure you can do it if you really want to. If you don’t feel well, just talk to the people here. I can help you too as best as I can until the day I die too if you want. Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/26/2011 - 2:48 am To be honest I don’t know if I want to live, I have been trying to convince myself life without her is worth it and I have tried so hard but all I have done is go around in circles aparantly the drugs might change that so we’ll see. I wish you the best with whatever the future has for you. Log in to Reply Deep abyss 2/26/2011 - 3:04 am I don’t have a real future. I know how that feels to lose a girl before. I can understand how you can go in circles. If you need help with it or how to deal with it, just ask me. idk if I can help you for sure or not, but I can try if you want to live. As for me, like I said, I have no future. I’m looking up ways to die to end it. I wish you the best with your future and about moving on. Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/26/2011 - 3:30 am How do you convince yourself to live when you don’t want to? Is this a consequence of “broken” brain chemistry or is this reality Log in to Reply Deep abyss 2/26/2011 - 3:36 am When you have a goal in life or a purpose, you can live to try to acquire that and accomplish it. When you don’t want to live anymore, then you’ll want to die like me. There are lots of ways to convince yourself to live, if you truly want to live then I can help you with that. Or ways to move on when a girl you love leaves you. Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/26/2011 - 3:50 am Right now I need to just try and get through the present set of troubles. (Read some of my most recent post or google Christchurch earthquake) Then I can try and sort myself out again and hopefuly the pills will help me stop running in theses stupid circles. For now I’m going to take sleeping pill and try and sleep because I have enough of today. Dear OP(indigo rain) sorry for hijacking your post. Log in to Reply Deep abyss 2/26/2011 - 4:30 am I see. Alright, I’ll try to remember to search for those. I’m still kinda new here myself, not even a week yet here. I hope you have a good rest and sleep then. If you ever wanna talk, just talk to me here or someone here. I’m sure they’d love to talk to you and help since we can all relate in some way or another. Log in to Reply smiling on the outside... 2/26/2011 - 9:12 am I hear ya, often I wish my heart would just stop. Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/27/2011 - 1:38 am i don’t mind paul_1991. i hope it’s my brain chemistry that’s broken and not a sucky reality. brain chemistry can be fixed easier. for a second i thought you could my sister’s boyfriend, same name and age, but theyre still together…. sorry im not helping….. im such a ruiner Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/27/2011 - 1:53 am Dw I’m single and you don’t need to be so hard on yourself your not ruining anything. Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/27/2011 - 1:56 am thanks Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/27/2011 - 2:08 am i don’t want to hurt my family either so i probably wont do it, but boy do i really want to. when i get that low, i think of how i would feel if one of my family members died and that usually stops me. i think the best way to kill yourself would be hanging because it wouldn’t take to long and there isn’t really any backing out once the chair or whatever is gone. that also is the one of the ones that scares me the most. 🙁 Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/27/2011 - 2:13 am I know how you feel. I really don’t want to hurt my family but I don’t know how I can keep doing this. I actually have a way to go I am pretty sure about but it requires access to chemicals the public can’t get easily. Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/27/2011 - 2:17 am that doesn’t sound like a good plan to me Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/27/2011 - 2:20 am Well I can get them but most people can’t I mean Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/27/2011 - 2:23 am chemicals and pills seem like a good way to do it but they are just too hard to get. this is responding to what you said on my most recent post that was your post? sad to say i donâ€™t really keep track of what i post. sure i guess we could talk now? deftones are the best or is it tool? i cant decide. lol. i bet lol isnâ€™t typed a lot on this site. cite? i swear i cant spell. Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/27/2011 - 2:27 am Lets just switch the conversation to the other post lol Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.