I can’t do regular schooling, so I’m doing online school. But see, here’s my problem. If I do that, I already know that I’m going to lose all of my friends. The guy I like won’t be around. And not just that, but I only have three years left of school. I have no time left to be…what I am. My mind is in so many different places, robotics, being a robot, aliens… But its not on school. I’m going to fail more at life in the next three years than I ever will. I hate my life, I hate myself, I my decisions, and I truly hate age. Why can’t I be little forever? Like Tobio? And where’s my dad fighting to the finish for me…? My dad doesn’t even see me anymore. Let alone love me.
Why can’t things just go back?
I’m growing up way too fast…
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I’m not good at giving advice, since my life is pretty screwed up as it is. But I do want to tell you to not short-change your friends. If they are true friends, they will like you for who you are, and not for where you go to school.
First off, I’d change you’re ID from Starry Eyed Loser to something else-I hate a lot of things believe me but all you can do is go with what’s happening…reality is a *****…but what you resists persists, so I’d just go with what’s happening and make the best of it-freaking out compounds the challenges. I know it’s hard…I don’t like to wake up every day and I would love to do something about it. All I can do is pass on something positive in the hopes that the message registers with you. Good luck!
things will go back to normal again everybody will face hard times and if you are facing them be happy because the happy times are just around the corner, hey growing up is good there are more things you will be able to enjoy when you grow up believe me . and if you want to talk more please reply
So, are you going to be a Freshman or Sophomore? That aside, if you felt as if you got your feet settled in school only to be plucked right out, I can see what you’re saying. You sound like you had a good social life thing going on too, very unfortunate. Why are you going to school online may I ask? Do you have a choice? Tell your family that you don’t want that kind of lifestyle.
Also, like others have sad, if they’re your true friends, they’ll find a way to visit you. I’m sure you can visit them too. Why not? More importantly, if you’re stuck at home online, you’ll just have to find new ways to get out in the open. That’s all. And please, don’t waste your time thinking about the past and how you don’t want to grow up. You’ll simply keep digging yourself a hole deeper and deeper. Before you know it, you’ll be much older. Enjoy your young life now. I know I wasted my time wishing my life was simpler as well.
Your time to live and grow is NOW! Everyone thinks about robots and aliens at that age, I’m sure. You want to expand your mind. But, please, don’t waste your youth on such futile things. You’ll only regret it later! Good luck.
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SoftSoul-
I like my ID.. And It’s sorta hard to go with /anything/ these days let alone stop day dreaming and realize that I don’t live in any of my dreams..
I Dunno-
I don’t /want/ to lose them. But they’re bad at keeping contact, and I’m bad at knowing what to say.
Tekkanphan-
I hope you’re right… Talking would be nice
Starry Eyed is cool….I meant the loser part.