General bloody rose by Journey 2/7/2011 written by Journey 2/7/2011 Has anyone heard from bloody rose lately? I’m worried about her, I know she’s going through hell right now with her dad dying and I hope she’s okay. 9 comments 0 Email Related posts Why Are People Such A**holes These Days? 10/21/2021 I hate… 10/21/2021 They meant a lot. 10/21/2021 Recovery 10/20/2021 I Just Want to Go 10/20/2021 No choices left 10/20/2021 The brink of addiction 10/20/2021 I think I’m being abused 10/19/2021 I’m not going to make it to 50 10/19/2021 Living Without Motivation 10/19/2021 9 comments crying on the inside 2/7/2011 - 8:14 pm She emailed me and i replied back but i think it was the day before her dad died and i never heard back from her im sure she’s goin through alot at the moment and just needs sometime to grieve i hope she’s okay do you talk to her? Log in to Reply Journey 2/7/2011 - 8:58 pm I hope that’s all… not that that isnt a good reason to be off here for a while. I just hate the idea that she may’ve done something. Her posts really got to me and I really, really hope she ends up okay… sorry if that sounds stupid, I don’t know how else to put it. No, I haven’t talked to her… I haven’t been, how shall we say, a positive influence for anyone. I’ve been spending a lot of time on the net trying to figure out how to do it and also a lot of time on here, just going through posts… It’s funny, I worry so much about you guys doing the very thing I’m planning on doing! At least I had a very good session with my shrink… who is finally back from vacation in Florida! He’s really awesome… I wish you could all have a chance to talk to him! Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/8/2011 - 1:46 am Yeah i understand exactly what you mean i think and feel the same way. So are you female how old are you and where you from? Log in to Reply willisurvive 2/8/2011 - 3:44 am Give yourself the same value and compassion that you give others! Someone will be devastated if you check out. There are people in this world you can love and who can love you but you will not find them if you are dead. Log in to Reply Journey 2/8/2011 - 7:02 am @crying… yeah, 42… soooooo old! The depressiona and zoning out has been going off and on since I was 14. Nowdays it’s always on. Can’t focus, extremely unmotivated… I would be content at times to just sit and stare at the wall. Other times soooo bored, but restless. Married with 2 kids, 21 yr old son and an 18 yr old daughter. My shrink tried me on Abilify but it just made me groggy and I was falling asleep at work. This hole I’m in is really getting to me… it’s like I’ve fallen and I can’t get up. I just want out. Log in to Reply Journey 2/8/2011 - 7:13 pm @crying… I live in Pennsylvania. @willsurvive, thanks. You sound just like my shrink! Haha… very nice guy btw. I just feel like such a failure. When I decided to go back to school I never thought it would be a problem, I had Honors and AP classes in high school and loved it. Just cant focus… can’t do it, now I wish I had never wanted to go back. Wanting something but not being able to have it is so much worse than never wanting it at all. Log in to Reply Woodro 2/8/2011 - 7:58 pm @journey. Please please don’t do this to your kids. My husband;s father did and it destroyed the family. Please. PLease try to get well. You owe it yourself and your beautiful children. Nothing is worth dying over. NOTHING. If abilify didnt work then try something else. Give yourself a chance please. You will get to the root of this if you keep fighting and when you do you’ll be grateful that you hung on just a little longer. Don’t give up. I’m Sending massive good vibes your way! Log in to Reply Journey 2/8/2011 - 8:22 pm @ Woodro, thanks for the massive good vibes. I need all the help I can get, there just isn’t any for me. Abilify was supposed to be the one with the least side effects. I’ve also tried a number of anti-depressants and couldn’t tolerate any of them, they also made me groggy and I was falling asleep at work. I’m just too tired to keep going, I can’t handle another 30 or 40 years of this. Although both my parents had Alzheimer’s when they died so I doubt I’ll make it to 80. Just feel SO OLD AND WORN OUT NOW! . For now also, Sometimes… I Wonder. (previous post) Log in to Reply Feelsalone 4/23/2011 - 1:58 am I feel like shit thinking about killing myself so young, it seems like everyone else here has actually tried in life and I’m just coping out early. I guess that’s kind of the problem I feel weak and I just don’t want to feel anything anymore. =/ I guess the only thing that’s been keeping me going is the thought of hurting people I leave behind, but I’m slowly working my way over that. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.