change of heart

Today was a close call. Had I been left to my own devices the next step wouldve been to devise a plan to get me out of here.
You know what I mean I dont have to say it.
So far so good I am still here not yet devising any method of exit.
I imagine its really just the coward in me. I dont believe in half measures so should I get as far as making the plan it will be executed.
So thats it all I have to report at this time.
Before any of you do something drastic remember how devastated those that love you will be.
Maybe that is all you really need to know to reconsider.
Or a coffee and a cupcake with a friend who really cares.
(that seemed to work for me today)
Just dont do it. I know dispair heartbreak and total alienation some of it self imposed.
Just hold on hold out hold tight.
Something is bound to give.