Well to open with a joke, trying to use this forum makes me want to kill myself! Not sure if you meant that or not..
But on a serious note, just really need somewhere to get shit out before the time comes so where better then a randomÂ forumÂ IÂ Googled…
Basically I’ve hit 25 an realised that there is no real point to my life, or anyone’s life for that matter. We are just born, eat, sleep fuck and die.. That’s it. We have no purpose really. We as a race will rape this planet of all resourcesÂ untilÂ forced extinction, and thats it. Fact.
And that gets me thinking, what am I even doing?
I’m not crazy, depressed,Â suicidalÂ or any of that I just feel nothing. I do not see a point or purpose. Why not just finish now? Same result in the end yeah? I had no choice in the matter but I have a choice now..
Rather then just wade through the day to day blank an aloneÂ swallowingÂ the tears why not end it?
I’m am sick and tired of this! When youÂ realizeÂ that there is nothing and that we are nothing then you get over the day to day pretty quick.
A saying I made up and now live by till the end. It somes up exactly how I feel and think and actually is the only thing that helps me through the day to day..
“I feel no need to soe my seed,
Or even leave a legacy…
Only the desire to escape myÂ existence..”
Sorry for the ramblings but It does feel better just to put it out there.
The original reason I found this thread was based on life insurance…
I want to make sure mine is as much as possible and that my family WILL get it. That’s the only thing that chokes me up about this, what it will do to my family. But the best I can do is to make sure they have a huge payout and think it was an accident. Not great but the best I can do.
I can sleep at night with this thought. It was an accindent, yeah it will suck for a bit but time heals all wounds wheres as if they new it was by my hand then they would some how think it was there fault and never live it down.
Anyway, thanks for listening or even just being a medium where I can voice my thoughts. Every little bit helps.