I have a question… How do I get through these days at school right now knowing that in the back of my mind i want to end it and am planning to this Friday? How do I face being in class in a a hour listening to other people talk about their weekend while my weekend i looked for ways to end it.
How do I talk to colleagues (not close friends just people I say hi and bye to really) in the real world knowing that Im planning to end my life.
What are your guys thoughts on this ?
Please respond quickly I’d like to know.
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That’s easy you just carry on as you usually would by pretending that everything’s ok and that you feel fine. The rest of the world only sees what you show them and what they want to see in that. If you don’t kill yourself then it’s like there was nothing wrong in the first place and unless people care they won’t notice either. Remember you have the option not to commit suicide and just carry on in the hope that one day you won’t have to pretend you’re ok, because you’ll actually are genuinely ok, but of it’s still what you want then look at everything as if you’re seeing it for the last time and smile with the knowledge that your pain is finally coming to an end.
For what it’s worth I hope you decide against suicide, because I’ve felt the same way as you for the past 4 years and after 2 failed suicide attempts I’m still here surrounded, but I’m surrounded by all the pain I’ve caused other people and it only makes life harder to live seeing the your own whirlwind of destruction.
stupid kid needs to change his ID, sounds pretty smart to me. Sounds like you learned a lot…and that’ what life is about, there is no shame in attempting, we are all doing our best and there is no manual for life….especially if you had a rough child hood and weren’t given a solid foundation for how to go about it….ie…certain tools, and constructive ways to deal with challenges. Sounds like you’re not meant to go and you’re crying for help…a cry for help is real and completely cool. It means a change is needed and you’re searching for a way to turn things around.
You can email or skype me softsoul9 – You’re too young, and you know that.
Lots of people care and are waiting for you to reach out…if you did in the past and it didn’t work, do it again. Do it til you get heard, that’s how many successful people have done it….persistence. Commitment to yourself. Good luck. Cheers!
You sure you wanna do this? You still doin it the nicotine way? I still gotta look that up. I guess just fake it as best you can thats what i do
Do you have anyone, family or anything who you could talk too about how you feel?
If not, then like the other people said, keep doing what you’re doing if you feel you need too. If you’re tired of pretending, don’t pretend anymore. Show your true colors. Make people notice. Make a statement. At the end of the day, you need to do whats best for you. What do you want? The answer lays deep inside you, you have just yet to find it. I wish the best of luck to you.