I ruined my life school, social and family wise. No one cares about me and I need an escape so I want to ruin it for good. I took 15 hydrocodone apap 5-500 trying to overdose but just ended up feeling sick for one day. Every morning I wake up with anxiety and have such hard time breathing just thinking about how bad things have gotten. At this point i want to die and end all this pain. I can’t even have a regular conversation with somewhat close friends and family members because of the depression in my voice. My plan now is to buy sodium nitrite the chemicals used in preservatives and eat the salt in raw form. The lethal amount is 4g so I plan on eating a tablespoon of it. Please let me know what I’m getting myself into by eating this I read that ppl on accident have eaten this salt and become unconscious. Please let me know since cyanide poisons are so hard to buy I have to resort to this.
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