General i just don’t know anymore. by loreta 2/26/2011 written by loreta 2/26/2011 i don’t understand what i did to deserve such an awful feeling inside me. 14 comments 0 Email Related posts friends and problems 10/22/2021 avoiding awakeness 10/22/2021 me 10/22/2021 End Game 10/22/2021 Birthday depression 10/21/2021 Why Are People Such A**holes These Days? 10/21/2021 I hate… 10/21/2021 They meant a lot. 10/21/2021 Recovery 10/20/2021 I Just Want to Go 10/20/2021 14 comments paul_1991 2/26/2011 - 11:45 pm No one deserves to suffer but we do. Life throws a lot of shit at us and its up to us to dust ourselves off and carry on, because in the end the only that can make it better is you. Why do we do this? That I don’t have the answer for and you need to find your own answer. Maybe life will throw something good your way to stick to all the shit thats caked on, maybe the bad is nessesary for the real good to come along. Life your life and own your past, no one says it easy but it’s gotta be worth it. Don’t be like me and live a hole of your own crap, these pills are making me sleepy and giving me headaches Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/26/2011 - 11:50 pm Hey paul yeah anti-depressants do make ya tired but i guess they do help they make you feel calmer and a bit happier but i’d rather not take them i hate that i need meds to feel normal and be able to function who wants that! And im worried about long term use of them sometimes i wonder if they do more harm then good Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/26/2011 - 11:50 pm Oh and the headaches should go away your bodies still getting used to them Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/26/2011 - 11:56 pm I dont want to be on them either, I’m basicly doing it for my parents. Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/27/2011 - 12:08 am At first my parents didnt want me taking anything but they really dont get the whole depression and anxiety thing they seem to think it will just go away like im doin it and need to stop but i was getting really bad and i ended up getting quite sick from it so i tried the meds and they helped and then i stoped taking them and got bad again and my parents could see that so they told me to take them if i really need them Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/27/2011 - 12:17 am My parents found something I wrote about how I felt and said I might need them. I really hate it but I spose if it helps it helps Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/27/2011 - 12:19 am Yeah its heaps hard when your parents find out i wish they didnt know anything but its to hard to hide and yeah i guess you kinda have to look at it like that Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/27/2011 - 12:24 am I know I tried so hard to make sure they never saw me suffer because there is nothing they can do. Seeing them crying and hugging me just made me feel so bad. They said things like “we failed you” but its not them thats failed me, makes me hate myself even more Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/27/2011 - 12:28 am Omg i know right i’ve made my mum cry cause of things i’ve said and when i got sick i scared the shit outta her and worried them so much i felt so bad and yeah they start to feel guilty like they did something wrong like werent good enough parents and i hate feeling like im not perfect for them Log in to Reply paul_1991 2/27/2011 - 12:36 am I hate life even more but I can’t leave even though its what I really want. Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/27/2011 - 12:47 am I hate life too and really hope i can leave asap! Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/27/2011 - 12:49 am Sorry loreta we’re just like having a conversation on your post. Are you okay why do you feel so awful? Log in to Reply indigo rain 2/27/2011 - 1:47 am what kind of anti-depressants are you on crying on the inside? i’ve tried a couple but they didn’t work. Log in to Reply crying on the inside 2/27/2011 - 2:55 am Hi indigo rain im on aropax have you tried that one? Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.