When I actually think about it. I’ve been depressed, for quite a while now. last year, I was depressed the entire year, except for my good moments but y’know. 2009…can’t remember much off the top of my head. But I’m pretty sure my depression started around…march, that year? I think so. kinda hard to tell, it creeps up on yah.
almost two years then. I’ve only just begun to have ‘the thoughts’. I expect I could take around 2, maybe 3 more years. that’s a long time to get myself sorted. I wonder how my grades will be effected though. man, they’ll definatly drop. they’ve dropped in a few classes, but only minorly. I only have 2 years of high school left, I could take that gap year? after highschool.
havn’t cut in a while (: which is good. it’s just never really come to mind. I’ve still be all zombie like, but a little less. but it’s basically bar goes up for one thing, bar goes down for another. my agoraphobia/panic disorders acting up. panic attacks ftw! maybe it’s just because it’s windy and dark. that’s when it usually spazzes up.