Okay, so I know everybody has bad days and we’re supposed to persevere and all that jazz, but I honestly don’t feel like putting any effort into living anymore. Everyone around is fake and shallow; every time I try to talk to my “friends” about something that isn’t happy they just end up ignoring me and trying to change the subject. They also talk about people who cut themselves (which I have done for years), saying they should just get it over with already. they have no fucking idea how tempted I am…
Unfortunately, all my attempts have been stopped by people who “care” (which I think they don’t want to feel guilty or look bad), and now I have to see a therapist that could give a rat’s ass about me. A guy that I think I loved used me in a “dogfight”; which is a competition to date the ugliest girl in the school. I’m stuck because I want to give up, yet I want to try to tough it out longer since I’m only 16. But right now all the bad memories are making me lean towards ending it…
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I feel u
if u wanna talk we can
and I also cut and I hate when ppl talk about that no nothing about it
thanks. I just hate how it’s always the people who are supposed to HELP you that hurt you…if you don’t mind me asking, how long have you been cutting?
Well I started three years ago and stoped for first 8 months and last time I stoped was 7 months
and did it not to long ago
but I wanna start again for good
right now I am not doing it
I haven’t cut for months, but I really want to. My mom keeps saying that if I do it again, she’ll send me away to a mental hospital, but that’s bull because that would embarrass her and my family. It’s just that cutting does help a little bit, but it’s not enough anymore…
does anyone know you cut?
A lot
I know a lot at school but I am the only one in my group and they have messed me up so much by opening there damn mouths to much
people suck. it’s pathetic, but i’m kinda hoping the whole “world ending in 2012” thing is true, it’d make things so much easier =P
Haha ya I know what u mean
I bet if life gets better u would wish life wouldn’t end thin
I’ve been waiting for life to get better for years, and so far it ain’t happening. I’m trying to wait to see if maybe things will get better when I move out of my parents house..btw, how old are you?
Same hear but I don’t live with my parents
I am 18 hbu
16, i just have 1 more year til I graduate high school! >_< I know that moving out isn't going to magically make my life okay, but I dunno, I can hope can't I?
Did you know that trying to overdose on aspirin blows? the only thing that happened to me is that my ears started ringing and i puked up white foam for hours. not fun at all..
No I didn’t know that
well not u know
and me to so I won’t try that lol
yup yup. so, i know this is reaaallyy personal, and you don’t have to answer, but..why did you cut yourself? Was it depression, people, etc?
Cuz my mother was dien
and I wanted to stop crying and I was sick of crying so I did it
and to make things a lil easer on me
I’m sorry. is she still alive? I can’t really say that I understand what that feels like because I don’t care too much for my parents, but I have lost friends…but I guess that’s not really the same thing
No she died last year I have a few post up about her if u wanna reed them u can
Called love you mom miss you boo
okay, I’ll do that. I have to go now, but thank you so much for talking to me. if you want, we can still talk by email. mine’s gina.dropdeadmassacre@gmail.com (don’t diss the email, it was a spur of the moment thing) feel free to email me if ya want
softsoul9 is my skype….that’s nice that you have a lot of people that care about you….and you’re therapist isn’t addressing your childhood which is pretty important for when we get into our teens and 20’s-30’s. You can msg me should you feel the need. Take care..Cheers