I shouldn’t be like this!!

During the last 2 years my life completely done a 180. When I was younger, my mother had a well paying job and she could support the two of us. ( I have no siblings and my dad never wanted to be a part of my life.) Then she got sick and now suffers from meiners disease. She got laid off that job and can’t work right now. But since I was younger that never had a great impact on me, so I lived my life as normal. When I got into high school, I had a great group of friends and always knew that my education came first no matter what. My first 3 years of high school were great, good grades, a good relationship, and had good times with friends. ( I was anti-social in school. Didn’t bring attention to me and never went to any dances or did any sports even though I love sports) But as I got older having a tight income in our household was becoming an issue. Then came my senior year. I took it as a joke. I got accepted in Michigan state university, dream school, and was super excited to go there. But as the year went on I started slacking off more and more, because I felt that this year didn’t matter. Didn’t do work or anything and I would come home and just play video games till my hands hurt. I had my girlfriend for one year and I was fine without having one. I tired to have some but no girls would see me as boyfriend material and only saw me as there friend. Anyways, I went on to graduate and was looking forward to college. As I wasn’t doing good in school, my mom and I would get into arguements and our relationship was going down hill. So after I graduated, she kicked me out of the house and I lived with a friend for a week and eventually moved in with an older cousin for the rest of the summer. I would keep in contact with my mom over this period of time and she and the rest of my family helped me get ready for college. Btw, since I didn’t do very well my senior year, I was placed on academic probation for my first year at college. As that started, I would go to class and not do any work and fell into the same pattern. Eventually I just stopped going to class all together and socialized more and more. I’m not a drinker or an abuser btw. Winter break came along and I went home and droped out of school all together. At home, I still had a rocky realtionship with my mom. I didn’t do anything at home but sometimes I would help out. I didn’t have any motavion to do anything. In the new year, weeks went by and my mom was sick of it. She said, go to a hospital and get help or go to a homeless shelter. So I went to a mental hospital and was admitted there and treated for server depression and suicidal thoughts. Inside there, it was terrible and wanted to get out as soon as I could and wanted to make a change. I got out after a week and was put on some medication. Came back home last Sunday and was doing much better with my mom. Then yesterday she snapped at me for not doing anything and wants me out again. I have no other place to go and suicidal thoughts came back into my mind. Never tired to commit but right now it’s the only option. I have nothing going for me, no job, no school, no girlfriend, and everything I liked doing in the past isn’t funny anymore. Is there a point to live??