I died a long time ago… at least that’s how i feel, it’s like living in another dimension, i see people smiling and enjoying LIFE and i try to do the same but i just don’t feel it any more, the more i try the more i get sick, i can’t pretend everything is alright anymore i can’t put my fake smile anymore.
I wake up everyday and i see the stupid sun. can’t stand my parents’ mood anymore i just feel empty, music reminds me i’m alive i guess but i’m getting tired  so when i say i would be better 6 feet under everyone thinks i’m crazy or a loser or a coward, is it coward to put a bullet in you head? or cut your veins? i’m not fake i don’t want you to feel sorry for me, it’s pathetic when people says “heeeey relax buddy! everything will be ok” “you have my support i know you are not ok so i will help you” well i’m not begging for help! i just wanna be alone sitting and listening some music why do they come and say “hi” with a stupid smile?.
I can’t stand it anymore and i’m just thinking about death, people die every single day so the world won’t stop because of me
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I feel the same way =
thanks for reading where r u from?
Do you really want to feel alone? Then why would you post this on the Internet? You could have written it yourself on a paper or just be alone…. Unless you really are calling for help? I don’t know… What ever it is you trying to do may it be a success as you believe in it…
thanks Omar for your opinion…
Omar has a point … No shame though reaching out.
What I tried to say was that I hate when people tries to help I’m not here for that or to make you feel pity for me I’m just sharing what I feel if I would like to help this would be the last place to find it I have a lot of things in my mind and I want to say it all before I go