I died a long time ago… at least that’s how i feel, it’s like living in another dimension, i see people smiling and enjoying LIFE and i try to do the same but i just don’t feel it any more, the more i try the more i get sick, i can’t pretend everything is alright anymore i can’t put my fake smile anymore.
I wake up everyday and i see the stupid sun. can’t stand my parents’ mood anymore i just feel empty, music reminds me i’m alive i guess but i’m getting tired Â so when i say i would be better 6 feet under everyone thinks i’m crazy or a loser or a coward, is it coward to put a bullet in you head? or cut your veins? i’m not fake i don’t want you to feel sorry for me, it’s pathetic when people says “heeeey relax buddy! everything will be ok” “you have my support i know you are not ok so i will help you” well i’m not begging for help! i just wanna be alone sitting and listening some music why do they come and say “hi” with a stupid smile?.
I can’t stand it anymore and i’m just thinking about death, people die every single day so the world won’t stop because of me