I can’t deal with this pathetic feeling anymore i’m tired of crying myself untill i get tired then i just fall asleep wishing to never wake up again, i hate hate hate hate this pathetic thing called life, what is the point of having a physical disability, what is the point of being in a fucken wheelchair for 6 full years, what is the point of being a 17 year old messed up teenager, what is the point of cutting and self harm, what is the point of being suicidal, what is the point of hoping for something that may never happen, what is the point of being so helpless and lonely, what is the point of faking a smile on my face daily, what is the point of breathing, what is the point of this heart ache, what is the point of being depressed, what is the point of crying, what is the point of waking up every morning, what is the point of suffering, what is the point of this pain (both mental and physical), what is the point of being alive. I can’t stand seeing my parents being disapointed for having me and now i’m starting to hate myself, give me one good reason not to go kill myself right now, i would do anything for someone to kill me right now so i don’t have to deal with this anymore. please please i really really need help :”(
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I am genuinely sad for you, aywr. Most people here really don’t know how bad it is sometimes. I think you’re very strong for going through what you go through.
May I ask, do you participate in any activities? Play any video games? Maybe you need to find a true purpose, maybe you can help others who are just like you? Have you talked to anyone about your depression? I know you must hate that last question, but I’m curious.
Also, walking upright is overrated! And you sound intelligent and mentally okay to me. Some people don’t even know what a computer is! Some people are truly insane too! Luckily you don’t sound crazy, you just need a lil’ love, my friend.
Do you have a Facebook account buddy? I’d love to have a chat with you sometime if you wish. If you don’t or you don’t feel comfortable doing that you can always reach me via e-mail. God bless you pal. 🙂
There is no point to life other than life itself; we choose whether to participate or not, if we do not, there is little point, depression sets in as we allow ourselves to become victims of our helplessness. If you desire a fullfilling life, full fill it, be active and when confronted by despair, plough through it; the more often you do so, the less the pull of despair. We empower ourselves, we push ourselves to new limits and feel good about the struggle. Despair is only fear. H
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Dear Lord, I lift this soul up to you tonight and ask that you wrap your loving arms around their heart. Lord help this young person to see that you made them in Your image. That their life that they want to take was bought with the price of Your shed blood. Lord help this person to see that You have carved out the puprose for this person’s life. Please help this person to seek and then to find that special purpose.
Help this person to see that their parents do love them and that they would never ever give up on them, for it was YOU Lord who knit this person while they were still in their mothers’ womb.
Shed Your light on this person tonight Lord.
in Jesus name I pray.
Amen
“He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.” 2 Corinthians 1:4
Know that God has a purpose for this trial, that He will take evil and turn it for good. Please understand how precious you are to God.
Love,
Adrianne
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