I hide behind a smile quite often. I really do think I might have bipolar disorder or borderline personality disorder. I’m very impulsive and I get seriously angry to the point where i start crying angrily and kicking things because of stupid little things like I don’t have control over the radio..I over think things just like i act on impulse. I feel like I have no friends but I do. I’m ugly fat and there is no reason to go on. I play a sport that I’m really good at but sometimes I just want to be with God and go to sleep forever. Â I wonder if this is really it. Is this all life has to offer? I’ve cut myself a couple times. but im trying..im trying to find the positive..