I have been on here a few days offering my help, experiences and support. I am feeling very drained and have decided that I am not going to wear myself out. I really want to help people but I know from experience that it has to start with the person in question. I can give you all the advice and help in the world but if you are not open to trying to change then I have lost the battle before I start.
I will still come here to check up on you if you want me too…. If you are serious about trying to turn your life around, or need someone to talk too you will go out of your way to find it.
I will be leaving my hotmail address and my for you and you can find me on Facebook where I also have a support group set up with 550 members to date.
I hope you all find the peace you are looking for. Remember I care.
Love to all HollyB xxx
Hollyb_25@hotmail.com
http://www.facebook.com/HollyNomNom
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Hey your cool and I am not against you leaving your wright I had to leave for a wile too. I hope u saw the post I had with your name in it it’s got to of my older post in it about my mom and family alright well it was nice to meat you. 🙂
Im not leaving completely… but my partner and mum are worried about me. They are right I have been putting everything I got into replying to peoples posts on here. I didn’t want to miss someone’s cry for help, but in doing that I have been neglecting myself and my life.
I will never not be here if someone needs me.
I will have a look at those posts. And i will speak too you soon x
Ok I know ur not leaving for good and take care of yourself
holly…i really envy you…your strong…i love to help people 2 but i’m to worried of what people think of me… well… my strength you have and i hope that you get back to feeling better soon… the whole site is with you, i know for sure 😛
Sander we can talk on facebook honey. I do not want to fall back into the place many here are at. I am a strong person but reading some of the posts on here, the lack of willingness to fight, just hurts. Dont get me wrong I know allot of people on here feel they have nothing to fight for, I know i have been there, but with a little self belief we know they can get through.
I am grateful for the people I have met on here. I will continue to support people as I believe in myself. Thank you for your support too x
ur welcome and thanks…
i 2 know how to fight but just don’t have the right tools to do so on the moment…i mean i was born a month to soon and was green on the time (have seen pictures but had had to lath 2 but oke that is a something else) i have been fighting ever since…i have not finished a single school…just because of the bullying and still i’m here…so i know how it feels to fight…but i’m on a break on the moment..letting myself rest a bit before continuing…guess the same as you now…?
I do know yes… Well Im off out now… I have been sat in for 3 days talking on here and I need to get myself out. Going slightly crazy and square eyed lol
Take care both of you. My little fighters 😀 x
People come and go sometimes,
that’s how Life is,
But some people will leave some marks & be remembered fondly,
And I think you’re one of those people..
Thank u for being such a blessing & a voice of angel in this blue site,.I’m sure some people here have been greatly touched, even changed by you. Nothing is going completely wasted.
Hey Niki your so wright and I do agree 🙂
how you been
Thank you so much Niki… I am here in the background at the moment. It means allot to hear that. x
Your willingness to help is awesome…I vote that you look after yourself 1st though. Cheers!
Omg. “After three days I haven’t been able to save you, to save the world. No one appreciates me. Oh my I’m so exhausted. I just can’t take it anymore.” (Swoons and falls down on bed.)
Umm I can’t but think this is mean
its not just you that thinks it is mean…she really tried her best and everyone knows it…and if people like to make fun of others here then just go and join the rest of the world…sorry but this is just weak
I think pretty boy trin to be funny
Well whatever he’s trying to be I thought it was mean
I came on hear to help peolpe out and i did. But it also drained me too so I know what it’s like
She thought she was going to swoop in here and solve all of our problems. When she discovered that there was more to it than just a few kind words, she becomes exhausted and can’t “give” anymore … just a martyr complex. I’m sure she meant well, but really … did she really think it would be that easy? It’s not even that easy for trained professionals and doctors, or that easy going to group meetings and hospitals and trying medications. So I’m sorry it sounded mean, but she was a bit presumptuous to think she could help by making a few posts, and then to chastise us all on top of it was just too much for me to take. So there.
That’s cause we fuck up. She lost her father & maybe she just whant’s to know how he felt & some way help
Hi Dylan and pretty boy… well Id love to say that it is a pleasure to meet you, but Id be lying. You really do not know me so you cannot comment on what you ‘Thought’ I was here to do…. I am not a child, I am not nieve… I did not come here thinking that I could solve the worlds problems..!!! I came here to try and offer some words of support and to share my story!
I did not say anyone on here was to blame… I too have my own issues to deal with in my personal life. So NO I have not chastised any body!!!
Thank you to those who knew why I was here…. to those who are not ignorant and presume they know what they are talking about when commenting on my posts.
@ Hollyb, I for one am with you all the way.
While I am all for free speech and sites that allow people to express how they feel, the people who come on here and encourage others to take their own lives should maybe look at what they are doing, not slag Hollyb off. They think it is their right to abuse others, like Hollyb, who are just trying to help. I think this site is for suicide stories and experiences (and not just a pro suicide site) so Hollyb has her own story, why should she not tell it?
Why would someone encourage another to die? as I have said in a previous post, I have seen so may people who are telling others the best way to ‘do it’ and encouraging very, very suicidal people (including someone who claimed to be just 14 years old) to take their life when maybe they are looking for someone to actually tell them it MAY be OK and there is someone out there who cares that they live. The way Hollyb has been slagged off on here is not fair and I am glad that she came back to stick up for herself. At least Hollyb is trying to do something, she obviously knows only too well the effects of suicide and it is not something that ever goes away or gets easier.
I know someone mentioned they thought Hollyb was coming on here thinking she could do something that no doctor could do but how many doctors have first hand experience of this subject? OK they have qualifications, can read books, see suicidal patients etc…and are professional ‘experts’ but really, don’t you think that people like Hollyb who have actually dealt with it can be of some help too? It must be draining for her, I know myself that speaking to grieving people who have lost someone through suicide, it makes my own grief worse because it keeps it on the surface.
Not everyone is going to be saved, suicide is something that will always happen and for some, it is the only way to end pain and suffering and to those people I feel so sorry but please, while you all have your opinions on this subject, don’t abuse others like Hollyb for theirs. From what I have read on her Facebook group, she has been abused in a PM, why do that?
I am not on here to rant at anyone, I can’t be arsed with all that but please try and understand where people like Hollyb are coming from and leave her and others to try and help those who really want it. If you don’t want her help then thats fine!
@fedup… thank you. I don’t really know what to say. I do not believe some of it myself. I am here trying to help. Im not preaching to anyone I am just telling my story and sharing my experiences. Then I see others on here offering ways out…. and Im the one being slated! Unbelievable. I said all I needed to say in my last post. Thank you again x
my soul is dammed
@Hollyb: for everything there is always positive and negative, pro and con (yin and yang, etc). that’s just how Life is.
and it’s up to you to listen, take heed, and going to which direction: positive or negative.
just know however that you can actually turn those ‘negative’ into positive, if you want. there’s so much to learn even from ‘negative’ comments, as it might ring some truths as well.
but also NEVER forget that there will also be ‘positive’ voices who support you, because people are not blind, they KNOW when you do good things.
listen to them also, so it can encourage & inspire you again, that what you’re doing is not all futile & meaningless.