I am 19, i left school to help my mom raise my siblings while she was in a abusive relationship. I was verbally abused by that man but i have always been the strong one, the one who dried the tears of others and never dares to cry. I fell into depression and sometimes didnt leave the house for months i would laugh and do normal things but had a fear of the outside world and the pain it could bring. we moved and now  theres no more abuse. i am in a relationship now and hes great and my mom gets along with him most of the time but she thinks im too into him tho thats not the case its not easy for me to know she thinks that. my mom and my boyfriend both have things planned you know a life a good idea of a life for me i know they both care but inside i can feel that none will happen i still have not recovered from the trauma of the past and i honestly dont see a future for myself and i can feel the end of the two relationships ending i can feel that soon i will say goodbye to both my mom and my boyfriend and tho i love my siblings more than anything i feel the its necessary to leave and go somewhere and never come back. what should i do?
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i think you should seperate up from both and struggle for living alone untill you find someone better, the best guy who could take care for you, well this is the hard part (of living alone) but trust me soon you will be used to be like that only
i think you should just give it some more time…i know it is hard but your not alone here…and at home you have people that care about you…tri talking about this and not being ready to move on…talk al little about it with your boyfriend and a little with your mom… just take small steps and split it between them…this way it wount hurt so much … it will take more time but it will work…and when you take this small steps your boyfriend and mom will be able to handle it better and be more relaxed about it… please just give it time and you can always talk to people on here if you don’t know what to do next…just remember that your never alone…