I am in so much pain…I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to think. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, with them, with everyone.
What do I do when I meet with a counselor? I never know what to say. I let him steer the conversation, but the problem is that things don’t really get addressed. Okay, suicidal thoughts. Great. But those don’t go away, and he knows that. I dunno. I dunno what to tell him.
Please tell me why I want to take care of other people but can’t take care of myself?
Please tell me why disgusting people like me get As on papers when I’m getting nowhere in life?
I want to jump off a cliff, a building, a bridge.
I want to drift, wander, sleep.
Please stop. Please stop. I want this pain to stop…