I was told my grandmother died two weeks before thanksgiving. My mom pulled me out of school for the week so I could attend the New York funeral. Upon arriving in New York, my mom got into an argument with her fiancÃ© (my grandmother’s son), and we were told to not attend the funeral. On December thirteenth, I was told my first stepdad was going to be deployed to Afghanistan, on the tenth of January. This would make it so he left ten days before my birthday-my thirteenth birthday. After five years of being together with her fiancÃ©, she broke up with him as he never resisted an argument. This led to my mom going to court to get a restraining order on her ex boyfriend. Between the time the two week restraining order and now, my mom was taken to court by my first stepdad. He left Texas to attend court to stop my mom from moving us to Colorado. We moved to somewhere else in Massachusetts, and my mom will not let me see the dad I’ve had since six months old.
In the process of all of this happening, I’ve been bulimic, cutting, and I attempted suicide twice. All of my friends are high schoolers (I’m in 7th grade), and I’m scared by most of them so I don’t want to talk to them. I have three other friends in high school, but they are friends with a girl with the whole cutting, bulimia, suicide. And I don’t want to make them think I’m following her steps to try to get attention. I can’t call the hotline because my mom is monitoring my calls to make sure I’m not violating the restraining order, and I don’t know the guidance counselors well enough to talk to them with my problems. Any tips?