I was told my grandmother died two weeks before thanksgiving. My mom pulled me out of school for the week so I could attend the New York funeral. Upon arriving in New York, my mom got into an argument with her fiancé (my grandmother’s son), and we were told to not attend the funeral. On December thirteenth, I was told my first stepdad was going to be deployed to Afghanistan, on the tenth of January. This would make it so he left ten days before my birthday-my thirteenth birthday. After five years of being together with her fiancé, she broke up with him as he never resisted an argument. This led to my mom going to court to get a restraining order on her ex boyfriend. Between the time the two week restraining order and now, my mom was taken to court by my first stepdad. He left Texas to attend court to stop my mom from moving us to Colorado. We moved to somewhere else in Massachusetts, and my mom will not let me see the dad I’ve had since six months old.
In the process of all of this happening, I’ve been bulimic, cutting, and I attempted suicide twice. All of my friends are high schoolers (I’m in 7th grade), and I’m scared by most of them so I don’t want to talk to them. I have three other friends in high school, but they are friends with a girl with the whole cutting, bulimia, suicide. And I don’t want to make them think I’m following her steps to try to get attention. I can’t call the hotline because my mom is monitoring my calls to make sure I’m not violating the restraining order, and I don’t know the guidance counselors well enough to talk to them with my problems. Any tips?
3 comments
You are so young. I am so sorry that this has and is happening to you. Unfortunamtely as you are a minor there is not to much you can do with out your mums permission. However if you think this is effecting your life then there are numbers you can call. I know you say your mum is monitoring your calls but use a pay phone. If the people on the other end of the phone know you are serious and that this is making you feel suicidal they may be able to call you back so it is not costing you anything.
As for not knowing the guidance councellors, the only way to get to know them is to speak with them. You only have to tell them what you want to and you do not have to rush it either.
If you want to talk more let me know x
if it helps you you can talk to me whenever you feel like it… ( sander.jansen.89@gmial.com )
and I don’t know if this will work but what about calling a number that can put you thou to an other number… Here in the Netherlands we have a few numbers like 1888 number information…maybe you have something like that in your place…if I’m correct, it will not be visibly on the caller list if thy connect you… but again…I don’t know this for sure… and what about calling it from somewhere else?
let me know if you want…
good luck and be strong.
Skype is good. You can add me if you like – softsoul9. It’s so sad that all the young teens on this forum are not experiencing what true, and loving parenting actually is. All this behaviour would not be happening in a wholesome functioning family. It’s not your fault s&s, you’re doing your best. Only thing I can suggest is for you to let out your pain and anger verbally or hit a bag or something-it’s building up in you and …your internalizing everything and acting it out on yourself…hence the cutting.
It’s your parents job when you enter this world to be there for you, and create a world you feel safe in, so you feel safe to be who you are, always. Perhaps you think that by cutting you won’t feel the pain….what’s ironic is that pain is a teacher. It sounds crazy but stay with it if you can, otherwise it will build and build and you’ll be dealing with it in your 30’s. Scream, kick, punch….let it out-find a trusted friend or counselor. Just not on yourself. Skype if you feel.