my bestfriend

my bestfriend maxxx kiled himself 2 years ago, i will admit life without him is tough. i have attempted suicide more than a few times. when i do attempt my whats now my ex but still the love of my life is always there to stop me but i dont want him to, i dont wann hurt him more than i alredy have but it seems like its hurting me more, and maxx was always the kind of bubby person but 2 months from the day he moved to ohio i got a call from his brother james tellin gme maxx had drowned him self in the ohio river he put a rock on his back and drowned, he never showed any signs of depression or anxiety or anything i miss him and i wish he was here.