Last night (Well actually the dream carried on until 1:25, making it a 12 hour dream…) I spent the night in a sort of purgatory that is not to be misconstrued with that of the Catholic faith. I don’t really know what my cause of death was, and I’d much rather spare the details to those who want to know, but considering that I live 50% of my life in the sub-conscience, I can say it was the most pain I’ve experienced, whether in reality or asleep; Now I’m completely shaken and confused and convinced that I don’t even want to sleep.
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Just a dream
Yeah, we always say it’s just a dream, but like I said: I live 50% in my dreams, and when it becomes something that causes me to change my entire way of thinking, it makes me a bit paranoid. I don’t dream of butterflies and unicorns, but of real-life situations that typically go in my favor, hence why my time spent sleeping. Dismiss it as a dream if you’d like, but I like to talk through them and possibly figure why my brain paints these mad portraits so vividly.
It might be lucid dreaming, if that is what you are doing. I do it all the time, I’m actually someone else in another world, my fantasy world. But I am doing it on purpose to escape my reality, so I know what is real. But it’s so real in your mind it sends signals through your nerves and causes you pain. This death that you speak of, is it a physical death or more of a spiritual death?
Yeah. It was a physical death. The beginning of the dream, I had full control over everything I did, and then suddenly things went the completely wrong way and I had to just “sit back and watch” so to speak. Next thing I know, I’m waking up feeling like I’m struggling for my life and gasping for air. This made it very hard to distinguish the real from the things I’ve dreamed. It also angered me that the time when I could play my fantasy role was taken from me to reveal something rather terrifying.
I think the real reason I posted this is because it made me think a bit differently about suicide, though I’m still unsure if that’s how I died in the dream. Also, I don’t know if the change of heart is a negative or positive one. I spared some details.