My life, My story…

Hi. My names Jemma. I am a total pushover. Currently I am seeking help from someone across the world & currently, I am in tears. I never wanted my life to turn out like this, no body plans there life at all. My life was pretty great a week ago, everything was becoming normal again (yes i had suicidal thoughts before that, and other problems..bigger problems) I can’t handle my stress anymore. At the moment i’ve fallen out with my bestfriend danielle, lost my crush & my mum. Nothing major happened between all three people, but it’s come to the point were i just want to die! I’ve appologised to my friend & i’ve had no replies. Writing this sort of stuff makes me feel alot better. I know some people think that i’m probably an attention seeking brat, but i’m not..if i say so myself, i’m kind..wouldn’t do anybody wrong..All i did was love him. I have probably 1 close friend..no one to fall back on so where does that lead me, i’ll tell you…suicidle thoughts. Allthough i’ve had them before..i’ve never done it (obviously) never slit my wrists or anything, the only thing i did for pain was pick the scabs on my legs to the point were they wouldn’t stop bleeding (now i have scars, i know what you’re thinking..it’s my own fault) Tbh i don’t really know what else to write. I don’t deserve to live anymore, I don’t even deserve a house or a family…no one likes me. I hate life it’s self and all the horrible people in it. 🙁