I need some advice. I am a 17 year old girl attending high school. My life should be amazing, I have been ranked top in my class for the last 5 years, have won numerous awards, play for several sports teams, tutor, part of student government etc etc. But it’s not.
Everyone thinks my life is perfect, but I am dying inside and I don’t know where to turn to. You see, when I was 12, I was looking for my camera in my mom’s room when I came across a box. Of course, being curious, I opened it and found much more than I could expect. Newspaper clippings about my dad being arrested, diary entries about my dad being depressed and a alcoholic, leaving our family in the middle of the night, emails from 16 year old girls saying they had had sex with him. How could this happen? Our family was perfect : Mom, Dad, me and 2 siblings. Â They don’t know I know..
Then it went downhill, my uncle was killed, my grandmother and grandfather were diagnosed with cancer. We’ve filed for bankruptcy, Dad’s in the hospital for health problems, Mom lost her job, my best friends have been telling to me to die and burning pictures of me. But hey, as long as I smile at school, I am perfect. Nothing is wrong with me.
Then I met a boy, 2 years older. He protected me and was loving and everything I wanted. But like most teen boys, he wanted sex and eventually used me and left me. I am broken.
I really need someone to talk to. Someone to tell me it’ll be okay because I don’t know how long I will be able to hold on.