When I don’t take my Meds I lose track of my myself. I sink in to a depression. The darkness takes over. All I can think of is my demons. All the mistakes I’ve made, the people I’ve hurt, those who I’ve lost are stuck in my head. The memories replaying again and again until I want to die.
I hate all those how rant about how suicide is a sin. I think they just fear death and that makes them feel weak. They hide their weakness behind walls of hate.
Suicide is not a sin. It is not a weakness. It takes strength to do. So many times I have wish I was strong to do it.
In the end though something always pulls me back, saving me from my darkness. I think of the people I love, the pain I’d leave them, and I keep going. I keep living.
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People say suicide is a weakness because it takes more to live than to die. It takes more to prolong your suffering alive, then to just die and ignore everything else. But the question now is, is dying really the end?
Dying is not the end? Read The Tibetan Book of the Dead…..
@softsoul: have just read the online reviews in Amazon.com
it sounds interesting..I might purchase it soon.
thanks.
there seems to be more & more even scientific support in the afterlife evidences.
consider these words of the psychologist and medical doctor Raymond Moody, after his thorough observations:
“I don’t mind saying that after talking with over a thousand people who have had these experiences, and having experienced many times some of the really baffling and unusual features of these experiences, it has given me great confidence that there is a life after death. As a matter of fact, I must confess to you in all honesty, I have absolutely no doubt, on the basis of what my patients have told me, that they did get a glimpse of the beyond.”
@softsoul & niKi: Books don’t tell you everything. Psychologists can’t be absolutely trustworthy either. My take is this – there is an ultimate truth of all matter. Yet, that truth will only belong to a higher being and is inaccessible to us. Which means we can research all we want but we will never find it – unless it is revealed to us by a God or something.
Nonetheless, even “revelations” can’t be trustworthy. How do you know that what you know/experience is true?
that’s really interesting notion, lynette0…perhaps you’re right.
hey do you have email? maybe we could talk/chat more about this.
my email is so.lynette@gmail.com – i don’t do skype and all the internet stuff because my laptop is broken and i’m using a friend’s. i only write emails/blogs thats all. anyway, i usually take some time to reply emails so if you write to me, forgive me if i take a long time to reply.
Lynette….who says they revelations can’t be trustworthy…you’re making a general projection based on what YOUR belief is. If you don’t trust, then don’t trust. There’s over 6.5 billion people on this planet and no one has Spiritual ability to have this awareness?….Believe what ever you like.
How do you know what you profess to believe hasn’t been revealed? Sylvia Browne, Doreen Virtue, Sai Babba, countless people I will never even know of who have maintained a measure of God consciousness. Again, though, follow your own intuition. It’s not about who’s right, it’s what’s true for you.