i wish everyone around me realized i wasn’t happy. they all think i’m acting out or being dramatic, but they’ll realize how wrong they were once i’m gone. i’m seriously depressed. i have no real friends, my boyfriend isn’t there like he should be, my mom ignores me, and i never see my dad or sister. so i’m always alone. no one realizes the seriousness of this. I’M DEPRESSED AND SUICIDAL! and they cant see it. no one wants to care. i don’t know what to do. i’m worthless. i have nothing to be proud of, everyone thinks i’m a joke, theres no positive perks to me at all. if i was dead, there’d be nothing worth remembering me by except how i was always the cranky *****. i’m 16 and have nothing to live for. if i was gone my boyfriend could move on, my mom wouldn’t have anymore problems with the house, or money, or annoyances, my “friends” wouldn’t care, and everyone would soon forget about me. no one sees me anymore. i already don’t exist. i sit in my room all day because i have nothing better to do. teachers don’t like me, and i’m failing at school. no one sees the real me. i even screamed to my mom one day that id be better off on anti depressants but the only thing she said id get was slapped. i have no purpose. i wonder everyday why i haven’t died yet. i’m sick of the pain, i’m sick of the tears andÂ loneliness. i see everyone i’m surrounded by with their big happy families, lots of friends, money, and lives. everyone forgets about me all the time. i’m a joke. and i’m better off dead. i shouldn’t have to take it this far for someone to realize what’s wrong, but i guess i have too.