I dont know how i could explain anything to anyone. Its like: waiting to die. Life, is fucking miserable. I cant be happy on my own. There is no hope. Everytime i think there is, It’s crushed, demolished, fucking annihilated. Always being back to sq 1. But what I dont understand is, when an opportunity arrives, I turn it down. I dont know why. fear? Maybe I’ve finally just said fuck it. fuck friends and being social. I dont want to be shut down. I dont want your hurt so I choose this pain. I guess, all I can really say is: they made me this way. why cant i let go of… anything for that matter? Whats wrong with me. We live this life, to die. The human being is a pathetic, vile life form. Im worthless and meaningless. Because in this world, all we are is a grain of sand, at the bottom of the deepest, darkest depths. We are nothing, in the never ending abyss of everything in creation. Pawns on the chessboard of life. Its your move world.
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That is exactly the what I feel. I hate circling and falling back and realising after months of searching what I knew all along and holding on to what you know is gone. I wish I knew the way of this pit but I am still waiting for life to make it’s next move before I make mine
So much hate for this world and for yourself. I know it is far from a perfect place to be but life gets better if you really want it too. I really believe that. At the moment I am happy and that is because I am thinking positive. I am not letting people dictate the way I think or live. I could just as easy turn it round and be where you are, AGAIN.
It starts with positive thinking. There is no such word as cant! We have to take control of our lives. If we want it to get better, we have to do something about it.
What has made you feel like this?
I’ve read many stories on here, so far I relate to yours most. I’ll be here to lend an ear…that rhymes…whatever, If you need someone, I have nothing to do and I’d love to hear your story.
Eternityofpain, read my post…Why do I feel like this? It’s not you.