Everyone has a story to tell. We come here to release feel like where not alone..no matter how many people say I feel your pain its never the same as your own..im the youngest of four always been called spoiled get whatever I wanted. Things changed when I turned 13 I started getting pains in my legs went to a specialist found out I have bad hips…that was 7 years ago..thought that time never been the same…im limited to what I can do I can’t ride bikes I can’t run to much I can’t walk alot I can’t kneel a certain way the list can go on…now at this point I have advanced arthritis and im only 21 something I shouldn’t have to deal with at this age.I should be going out having fun learning from my mistakes but instead I feel like such an outsider..I joke and I laugh so no one can see the real pain…I used to pop pills to get rid of the pain the more I popped the more depressed I think I got…i have cut myself…I’ve gone to counseling talked it out but nothings worked…i even started going to church see if the faith in god will help but as days go by my pain gets worse..I want to be normal but I know I never will be…I have scars from surgeries that make me feel uncomfortable..my parents rub it in alot that im not normal all bc of my hips. I know there’s people out there with bigger problems and should be able to deal with this but I can’t anymore I just want to give up…I hate that I rely on my parents for support I want to live on my own but can’t bc of this…feel like a 21 stuck in a 90 year old body…all this problems cost alot of money money we don’t have be easier just to get rid of the main problem…me
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This so-called “real world” is like a prison…you’re trapped inside your body, your limits, environment, circumstances, financial, etc etc
Some kept talking about how the whole Earth will “ascend” to a newer dimension, especially nearing Dec 2012…well, I just hope damn well it would be,..otherwise, even I’ve found not much hope in continuing to live in this entrapping, limiting world.
A friend of mine coined the phrase “Global Acceleration Syndrome”…where one’s life speeds up out of control and symptoms can not be addressed by eastern or western medicine. Everyone is experiencing it differently. I’ve been in it for 7 years going on 8-It’s strange, bizarre, and unknown. This may speak to your situation or not….the feeling stinks. Good luck.
i know it does not help but i’m 21 also… and i go sometimes go out…but i mostly go out to drink…try to forget…well it did not work..
well depression and crowds and going out just don’t fit to well in my case…it gives me more stress
i do feel for you…