Who Am I.

This is not me.
I am not this girl.
I have totally lost all self respect for myself.
I don’t know who I am at all.
I know who I’m trying to be isn’t me.
I’m just a little scared girl deep down I guess.
I crave attention from the opposite sex.
I crave getting compliments.
So much that I act like a slut to do so.
I hate myself.
I hate every little fucking thing about me.
I’m never going to be good enough for anybody, or even myself.
So why even try anymore?
I don’t know when, but I’m going to kill myself.
I need to make it look like an accident, so people wont think I’m selfish.
I can’t live like this anymore.
I just can’t.